vickiebe's Journal

This is such a scary time. I've been married twice. My first husband died at 39. He had type 1 diabetes. He lost sight in one eye, and had a kidney transplant. That kidney was given to him by his brother. It lasted 5 years and failed. Was on dialysis waiting to get a 2nd transplant from his sister and didn't live to see it. Our children were young when he passed away 11 and 12 1/2.  Never in a million years would think I would get diabetes and High blood pressure which he had also. It scares me to think my kids could lose both parents to diabetes. I'm so puzzled by it because there's NO family history of diabetes on my mother or father's side. All I could think about was his struggles with the disease and am I going to go through that too? Boy, if he was still alive and found out that I was a diabetic I often wonder what he would say. As I was crying in the doctors office after they diagnosed me telling them the story of my first husband they tried to tell me that type 1 and type 2 is totally different. But don't they do the same damage to your body? 

I am reminded though how precious life is. You can seem "normal" one minute and then the next minute have everything change forever. I guess I've taken life for granted thinking I would never get sick. Never having to go through what I saw my first husband went through. Is it what comes around goes around? I am a christian and believe we go through what we go through for a reason. Maybe having my first husband be a diabetic and high blood pressure prepared me? I don't know. I surely wasn't prepared to hear the diagnoses. I was in shock! But I am determined that my children will NOT lose both parents to diabetes. I will fight this and win. God is my rock and its Him who I seek to get me through this. And so far in 3 weeks I couldn't have done it without Him.  God is GOOD.