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petal69 
11:33pm, March 18, 2009
I need to ramble! I am so scared about so many things.....mortgage, Christmas, bad dreams, the whole world seems filled with sad news and I just want a positive and happy life. I hate being in pain all the time, and I wish that people would just love one another with no other motives. I keep having dreams about my evil stepmom and I wish they would just go away. I loved her so much when I was little and she was rotten. I miss my dad but she gets in between and I get mad because he lets her. It feels awful when someone is talking to you on the phone and the have to keep their voice as low as possible because she's lurking around the corner listening. Sicko!!!!!!
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I am so sorry that each day is a struggle for you due to constant pain but you should not let anyone beside yourself have that type of control over you! If your STEPMONSTER wants to be an evil person - so be it - but from what I have learned about you, there is a lot of love in your heart so just don't let someone else spoil that for you. Remember, you did not marry her , he did! Good luck with your situation and stay strong!
emk14
thats a real shame that someone you loved so much as a child would turn on you and treat you so badly , what a witch... it sounds to me like she is jealous of you and your dad, she wants him all to herself ..if thats the case there isn't much you can do until he realizes what she is doing ..i stay scared a lot to , my fears turn into panic attacks . i'm so sorry you are so down , you are so sweet i don't know how anyone could be mean to you .ooxoxxxoxx love you
dizzylizzie
Aw hun, I'm so sorry to hear that things are so negative and lonely for you right now. I've been pretty blue too and when I watch the news it makes me cry sometimes. Right now, it's so hard for so many ppl and I feel so alone sometimes. Even here on DS doesn't make the emptiness go away completely and I've been staying away cuz I've been so depressed. My pain has been bad and keeps me in bed. When it lasts for weeks I hate it. I have nobody to call to help...
I hope things will get better. If you need to talk, let me know. I check DS evryday except when I'm away on a trip and have no pc.
*double hugs*
shell
wannabewell
I used to celebrate holidays and such but don't anymore since changing my religion. But I do recall our family getting visits from people in the month of February and March dropping off a gift. It was like x-mas charm all over again. If that is what you have to do, belated x-mas, you do this and don't worry none. People love last minute surprises and they also understand situations going on today.
I am sorry to hear of the stress you are having with your family. I can understand this because my mother caused me so much stress in my life I went to sleep and had bad dreams about her every night. The dreams stopped when I cut off my relationship with her. I don't expect you to do this, because you dad isn't the problem. But that situation is definitely triggering those bad dreams! It is very good you are aware of what the cause is, you might find a way to combat it. Hugs Babe!
lizgirl
I'm sorry that you're struggling sweetie..I am always here for you!!! hugs...xxxxxxx
brooklynmarie
You poor thing!! I have an evil stepmother too!! Ahhh! It really sucks and it can be depressing. You can make it through this and hopefully you will have a wonderful holiday despite the crap that tries to keep it from happening. Love and hugs to you!!!
AmandaJane7