Triks's Journal

Is it ok if I just talk to you in lemans’ terms and use the words that I use everyday? 

Must I think of all of those profound but complicated expressions when I sit down to pray?

Is it truth that I must close my eyes and that my head must be bowed in order for you to give me your attention on any given day?

Do I have to attend church services, belong to the choir and be one of the deacons for you to know that I am okay?

Must I read the Word on a daily basis and recite the verses verbatim for you to stay in the depths of my heart?

Wasn’t our relationship exempt from separation at the very start?

Should I change my tone and modify my speech in order for your love to be within?

Is it fair that they say I can only love the one whom is opposite of me; that I cannot make love without experiencing matrimony?

Does all of this need to occur before you can shine your light on me?

Must I face east; confess 3 times a day and jump up and down when I praise for you to recognize that I love you the same?

They say that I must go through someone else to get to you; that I am not pure enough, not wise enough and that I must die first.

Is that true? 

Is that what I must do for my soul to be soothed? 

Do I live by their protocols, go by their guidelines and follow their rules in order for your love to flow within me?

Can’t I thrive in Your consciousness, change my name to I am and function in Your resourceful power in order to understand?

Can’t I remind them that I was made in Your image and that I am the author, the director, and the writer of this screenplay?

Can’t I exist in the wish fulfilled, create my own days, manifest my dreams and make my own realities; must I partake in their disillusioned misery?

Can’t I just be…Me?