Words are the most powerful drugs used by mankind
October 11, 2008 5:55am
If I did't laugh, I'd scream.Everything that's been happening to me lately has yielded no happy mediums. I'm either manic as hell or …
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Close Bipolar Disorder
8 year diagnosis.I'm either with it and a little manic or I'm not with it and depressed. Sometimes I achieve 0 to 60 mph. in .2 seconds. I'm now trying to research all I can about it and teach myself coping skills.
Treatments
- Abilify Too Soon to Tell
- My doc's just starting me on it and taking me off the risperidal.He belives too much antidepressant and not enough mood-stabilizer
- Risperdal Somewhat Helpful
- I've been on it for 7 years and don't know if it works, but if I don't take it I know after a day or two without it I get seriously physically ill.
- Wellbutrin Not Working
- They put me on it earlier in my diagnosis, what a fucking joke. Didn't do shit for me.
Close Depression
Treatments
- Cognitive Behavioral Therapy Working / Worked
- Worked and still need it, but I can't afford the $80 a session co-pay. Fuck you too Medicare.
- Effexor Working / Worked
- 300 mg.s It works,but it doesn't cure my bipolar episodes or ease feeling out of my skin when I have a Post Traumatic moment.
- Positive Thinking Working / Worked
- Works for a period of time,but can put me on my ass when I can't accentuate on the positive.
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- It worked, but I can't afford to go anymore because my insurance(Medicare)doesn't pay up to $80 a session.
- Writing Working / Worked
- It helps.
Open Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder
What stemmed from various things happening in my childhood only manifested itself in me over the years. I'm fun and nice a pie unless someone or something said makes me take control with harsh words or An ass beating that makes me see through shit and its blind rage.
Treatments
- Inderal Working / Worked
- Stops my shakes from Respiredal.
- Music Somewhat Helpful
- Of course. It's a form of expression.
- Psychotherapy Not Working
- I can't afford to go any more with the medical insurance I have. And I know I need it.
- Reading Working / Worked
- It's an escape if something stray doesn't enter my thoughts.
- Talking Working / Worked
- Sometimes it helps if I'm in the right company. Other times I casually warn people not to fuck with me by saying stupid shit or don't touch me.
Open Anxiety
I'm usually in some kind of control except when I'm out of control. I can get anxiety attacks when PSTD or overthinking comes along.
Treatments
- Breathing Exercises Somewhat Helpful
- Only way I can try to control my heart rate by concentrating on deeps breaths through my nose or I'll lash out or pass out.
- Klonopin Working / Worked
- Helps me sleep unless I am way over stressed.
- Paxil Not Working
- They experimented me on it 5 years ago and I hated it. I felt disassociated from myself.
- Positive Thinking Somewhat Helpful
- I'm much more positive towards other people then I am to myself. Unless they're a dumbass or out right bastard.
- Trazodone Not Working
- Always gave me night terrors that I woke up to feeling out of sorts because of the "Done". Hate it, but you'll sleep
- Xanax Working / Worked
- Xanax are my friend. I get three 1mg. tab a day. However, I don't use them if I really gotta get stuff done. Other days I can't get things done without it.
Open Meth Addiction & Recovery
Major user to a casual user. I've seen very,very bad things and I see a nation of kids that are going to become way fucked up adults. Now I'm trying to abstain, but I sleep up every couple of months.
