My husband and I are very discouraged, …
My husband and I are very discouraged, but we keep praying that it (getting preg.) will happen. I haven't really been …
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joy2sign 
10:02am, November 6, 2009
i'm really freaking out. I'm anxious...having random panick attacks...lashing out at family....completely avoiding some family.....and feeling angry at everything and everyone...crying all the time......and just want to run away.
The only other time i have ever felt this way was when i was on birth control pills when I first got married. it was so bad that I had to quit my job and move back home with my parents so they could take care of me. I just couldn't function till i finally got the stupid drug out of my system.
I feel just like i did when i was on the pill. It's aweful and scary and I just feel like i'm such a week person for not being able to control these stupid reactions. It doesn't seem to matter what i know in my head or how much i rationalize it, my feelings and reactions are completely unrational. Like i feel indescribely angry and hateful towards my mother and really have very little reason and she doesn't even know it's going on.
I plan on talking to my doc about it but to be honest i'm worried their just going to try to put me on some sort of drug and really i don't respond well to drugs. so i don't know.
It's very stressful right now. hubby is being very good and suportive but i don't know how much more he can take before he gets really frustrated with me.
I need this to pass now. could you use your prayers.
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You need to find some way to calm down and relax. You still have a ways to go and the hormones aren't going to go away. I assume you have explained what you are going through to those closest to you so that they understand why you are the way you are right now. I don't know if there is anythikng the doctor can give you. Have you tried meditation, yoga, or something else that normally would help you to relax. I hop enad pray that you find some mental and physical peace. XO :)
Jenn1307
Wow, I am so sorry that you're feeling this way. Pregnancy can really affect everyone differently. You're in my prayers *hugs*
NokeChic07
I'm also sorry to hear about how you are feeling. I'll keep you in my prayers. In addition to Jenn1307's ideas, have you also thought about talking to someone your trust in your place of worship (if you have one) or a counselor/therapist? Hang in there!
thinkingpos
Please take a deep breath and try to relax, I think you reaching out in this entry took alot of courage. It does sound like you do need to talk to a doctor though if you are feeling this poorly. Hormones can reek havic on the body and as a result make you feel pretty bad about everything. I would encourage you to talk to a ob/gyn specialising in hormone treatment or perhaps a phyciatric therapist. I will pray that times get easier for you.
cwagsy
I'm going to talk to my doctor i think. I would talk to someone at my church but my parents are the pastors so that doesn't really work out and it's a very small fellowship so no there really isn't anyone to talk to there. I talked with my mother in law today and my best friend and I felt a lot happier after talking to them. I'm still pretty angry with my mother though.
joy2sign