Journal

So i'm now 29 weeks prego.  I'm really feeling stressed about all the things "they" say you can't do and can't have while prego.  

We bought a house  a couple months ago and are now renovating it.  There is lots of work to be done and not much help at all.  Basicly just hubby and I doing the work and we don't have the money to hire help.  

So i'm trying to be careful about what I do and how I do it.  I am a very hard worker and i'm not used to not being able to do anything.  I bought a respirator so that when i'm around dust and fumes I will be protected but i find myself paranoid and worried that in this process I could hurt the baby. 

If I went by everything the internet says I would shut myself in a steril room and never leave.  So I just don't know what to think.  

The next project I need to work on is sanding painted wood trim.  And I know lead paint is a concern (don't know if  there is lead paint or not)  So i don't know if i should do it or not even with the respirator.  And than am i ok to take the mask off when I leave the room or should I have the mask on the whole time I'm in the house.  

On top of all this I have gall stones and have been put on a very low fat diet to control attacks.  So i'm constantly trying to figure out what I can eat and what to eat at every meal.  

Feel like everything in my life is a big question and hoping I make all the right decisions. 

So I'm in my 19th week and all is well. I'm growing big time so I hope that means baby is growing just fine.  I defenitely look pregnant now.  I'm anxious for the ultrasound in a couple weeks.   I'm praying and begging God to let me feel the baby move.  I haven't felt it move yet and it would be so great to have that happen. 

I have been experiencing so many weird side effects of pregnancy. The ones you read about but don't know anyone who has experienced them.   Crazy!  For one not so uncommon I have terrible terrible siatic pain. My butt hurts bad when i sit or stand.  I burn so easy in the sun even with sunscreen,  I've deveoloped skin tags on my nipples,  have lots and lots of flem,  and tons of discharge.  Fun Fun haha.... Thankfully I don't have heartburn though.

I'm getting really excited about becoming a mommy and being a family.  It's going to be a great Christmas and New Year!

So I've been enjoying the growing of my belly. was looking very prego in my 16 week belly pic. 

Then yesterday i woke up with a much smaller belly. And it's still small today.  I don't even look pregnant.  just look a little puggy like i did earlier in my pregnancy.  I guess it could have been bloat that has gone down and or baby changed position.  totallly frustrating and a little concerning though. 

I bet I could even buttom my pre pregnancy jeans!  This is crazy.  Talk about not feeling pregnant.  Symptoms were left back in the first trimester and now I don't even have the belly to show for it.  Just heard the heartbeat on Thursday and all was fine.  Maybe I should go in to hear heart beat again. 

tottally bummed..