Just another
December 28, 2008 6:18pm
Broke up with my partner of 2 years. I just wish I was dead.
OOI 
10:23pm, August 3, 2009
-
About Me
OOI
-
About Me
Gay, don't smoke or drink, have full time job, great pay & bennies, but suffer from anxiety and depression. I had a partner of 2 years, but the feelings are not there anymore.
Gay, don't smoke or drink, have full time job, great pay & bennies, but suffer from anxiety and depression. I had a partner of 2 years, but the feelings are not there anymore.
-
Interests
Wildlife, animals, books, gadgets.
Wildlife, animals, books, gadgets.
-
-
Recent Activity
- Sorry, there is no activity in the My Activity feed.
-
Journal
This entry is private
-
Journal Entry for August 4, 2008
August 4, 2008 4:08pm
I had a scheduled vacation day today. Finally got up at 2:30 pm. Life is stupid.
-
First
August 3, 2008 11:04pm
Just another day that I am depressed. I always want my life to end when I feel this way. God feels so distant. I wish I were never …
-
Photos
OOI hasn’t uploaded any photos yet
-
Advertisement -
Support Groups
Close Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) Depression"Came Out" at 17. At 18 I woke up with numbness on my right side of body. After the doctor tested for Diabetes, MS, brain tumors, stroke, thyroid, and heart attack, he found out it was anxiety / depression. Initially put on 10mg of Prozac, then 20, 30, 40, 50, and 60. After 3 years I quit taking it. Year later w/ no meds had a major anxiety attack. Put on Lexapro 20mg. Worked great at first. 2 years later had major problems with my relationship went up to 40mg. Now back to 20mg.
Treatments
- Lexapro Working / Worked
- Stops the anxiety. Still have depression here and there.
Open Gay Men's Challenges
I came out when I was 17. I have been in two gay relationships each. Both lasting two years.
Open Sex / Pornography Addiction
The earliest I remember being attracted to the same sex is in 2nd grade. The first time I masterbated was in 5th grade and I was hooked.
Open Stress Management
Main stress comes from my career in the financial world. I am responsible for 15 adults all making legal business decisions that impacts millions of dollars. Tight deadlines and not enough hours in the day.
Treatments
- Lexapro Somewhat Helpful
- 20mg daily. Mainly for anxiety but does help curb the stress a little.
