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March 11, 2009 8:58pm
i hate my self. i hate my life.
what's the point anymore
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Goal End Date is Jun 8, 09 173 days ago.
m00iinicaax3 
8:58pm, March 11, 2009
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About Me
m00iinicaax3
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About Me
16 years old, love sports, hate life! I'm a fucking messed up depressed freak. what's the point? hah beats me. I am also trapped inside the world of an eating disorder and can't get out. i know that i think irrationally and as a result act irrationally... but i can't help it! i may sound all pathetic here, but really I'm a nice person and would love to talk to you.
16 years old, love sports, hate life! I'm a fucking messed up depressed freak. what's the point? hah beats me. I am also trapped inside the world of an eating disorder and can't get out. i know that i think irrationally and as a result act irrationally... but i can't help it! i may sound all pathetic here, but really I'm a nice person and would love to talk to you.
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Interests
Soccer, Gymnastics, Basketball, Coaching gymnastics, running, trampoline, swimming, school, medicine, exercising, ect...
Soccer, Gymnastics, Basketball, Coaching gymnastics, running, trampoline, swimming, school, medicine,
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conficted
January 24, 2009 2:28pm
I am sick of feeling depressedI hate my self, i hate everything that i amI hate having no …
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i'm a failure
September 9, 2008 7:48pm
OH gosh, my life is just overwhelming now!
Nothing is going right, I feel just so depressed :(
so to start off with...i already have horrible joints, …
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ugh i don't know what to do!
August 24, 2008 11:07pm
so i usually have soccer games on saturday mornings, and work all day sunday( from 9-5) and i just got my soccer schedule and i have 4 games on …
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gee what a fun day(sarcastic)
August 5, 2008 8:08pm
Ugh..today was a busy day!
So i had to wake up at 8:00 for my first appointment of the day which was with a retina specialist..this was my first time …
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Hi girl! Just wondering if you're doing ok.
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lol have faith....love you gurlxoxo kristi
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ya me to... i cant stop...even if i tryxxx krystal
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no...cause then ill miss u even more if you die or anything.... i am still battling bulimia.....its hard to stop
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things are good but i miss you alot...i cry alot because i miss talking to you....whatb about u??? xoxox love krystal
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Support Groups
Close Hypermobile Syndrome
So i'm 16 years old, and I have been dealing with this all my life, but recently its gotten oh so much worse. i'm extremely active..i do soccer, gymnastics, swimming, running, basketball, and my joints are just simply deciding to give out on me making participating in sports harder! I am currently doing physical therapy and injuring just about every joint in my body! right now my ankles are going for my personal record..of about 5 sprains per ankle since jan. its just too much
Treatments
- Physical Therapy Too Soon to Tell
- mm it is too soon to tell. ive only been doing it for slightly over a month..my ankles dont hurt as much but still it isnt as effective as i would have hoped..but i have faith in my doctor!
Close Sports Injuries
Type: Rotator Cuff InjuriesI do so many sports..soccer, gymnastics, swimming, basketball, running and i get injured during all of them soccer is mostly ankles, knees, and hip.. gymnastics is all joints! basketball mostly ankles and knee swimming mostly shoulder running mostly leg in general its madness! most recent in shoulder and toe..
Treatments
- Ice Pack Working / Worked
- it makes me feel better..all numb its a good feeling
Open Shyness
I'm so shy at school its affecting my learning experience. i won't even raise my hand or talk in class or even at school but the second i leave the school i have so much energy and i'm not as shy i'm just self conscience its strange but a problem i need to get over my shyness at school
Open Chronic Fatigue Syndrome
I got diagnosed with CFS when i was about 13 years old. school was horrible that year. i deal with it basically for the rest of my life..but some years its worse than others but currently it isn't too bad hopefully it stays this way
Open TMJ
I have had TMJ since i was 13..i am now 16 nothing is really helping to rid of it my doctors hope i grow out of it.. but i'm not as optimistic as them i wear a night splint it does nothing but make me wake up sore and change my bite..
Treatments
- Mouthguard Not Working
- it really doesn't work for me..all it does it change my bite and make me sore
Open Hearing Loss & Deafness
Type: Sensorineural (Moderate)well i've learned how i have my hearing loss.. from this genetic disease called Ushers Syndrome It also is to blame for my eye troubles. Either way..knowing why i have the hearing loss is not very comforting.. i still fear that my hearing loss will continue to get worse..and it does continue to get worse.
Treatments
- Ear Tubes Working / Worked
- I had ear tubes a while ago.. they helped stop ear infections..i went from having probably 7 a year..to only 1 or 2 a year!
- Hearing Aids Working / Worked
- helped me hear.
- Lip Reading Working / Worked
- helps me for when i'm talking to people or in class listening to my teacher talk
Open Colds & Flu
I get colds SO much and the flu every year nothing helps me :/
Open Depression - Teen
yeah i'm depressed.. been this way for a while.
Treatments
- Cognitive Behavioral Therapy Too Soon to Tell
- Positive Thinking Too Soon to Tell
- easier said than done!
- Prozac Too Soon to Tell
- Talking Too Soon to Tell
- Writing Somewhat Helpful
Open Eating Disorders
Type: Obligatory ExerciseI exercise soo much i could burn 8000 calories in a day if i was having a good day and i also eat a ton of food before burning it all off of course on a bad day..i can eat up to 2000 calories!
Open Other Eye Problems
Type: Otheri have weird eyes.. i'm near sighted.. and i have floaters, flashes, and lightening streak things i don't know how to explain them but they annoy me so much, and i'm now going to a new eye dr. to figure out whats going on with my eyes!
Open Family Issues
ugh i just don't get along with my mom and sister at all! when they go on vacations its so peaceful in the house with just me and my dad(i get along with him) but i'm always fighting with my mom and sister when i was younger she would yell at me and intimidate me..but now that i'm older she knows i could hurt her..so she is more careful but she still yells at my constantly
Treatments
- Talking Working / Worked
- talking really does help..but doesn't fix the problem
Open High School Stress
gosh high school is all about stress isnt it!! i'm going into my junior year with 2 APs..and AP english is supposed to be extremely hard so i'm not sure what i got my self into! but we'll see :/
Open Fitness Goals
Type: Be the best you can bei love exercising..being active i love pushing my body to its limit even if it is bad for me
Treatments
- Running Working / Worked
- lose fat weight...and tone muscles
- Weight Training Working / Worked
- get muscles...
Open Chronic Pain
I'm always in pain with headaches..and joint pain
Open Diets & Weight Maintenance
diet like all the time i just have to lose weight rarely eat normally
Open Self-Injury
i used to cut myself i've gotten better at resisting but some days i just have to
Open Physical & Emotional Abuse
i have my reasons..and don't like talking about it too much but all i know now is that i hate my mother and i have absolutely no reason to forgive her..
Open Tooth Grinding
i was diagnosed with bruxism a while ago and givin a mouth guard..it doesn't work at all..if anything its making clenching worse! while helping with grinding
Treatments
- Mouthguard Considering
- doesn't work for me at all
Open Back Pain
my back hurts so much..i probably sprained it... i've sprained my back many times before
Treatments
- Heat Somewhat Helpful
- feels amazing
- Stretching Somewhat Helpful
- feels amazing
Open Degenerative Disc Disease
I have degenerative disk disease
