the god of my heart
August 3, 2008 3:43am
The God of my heart is in my heart
not called by church bells, disturbing my
Sunday morning sleep.
is in the seeing of my sons
after two months of …
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irishwriter 
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About Me
irishwriter
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About Me
am chef, poet, playwright and heritage specialist when able or fit to work which at the moment is not very often! The past year has been very bad with writing, producing and directing one of my plays the absolute highlight of my year! Have just had three bereavements in the space of a month, one very close friend and other two friends. two were sudden deaths from blood clots and the other had been ill for some time. am still in shock about my friend. He and his family are as close as non family can possibly be. his wife is one of my closest friends and the only person here who is aware of my battle with this disease, not because i hide it but because my act is so good that others just cannot comprehend that i am ill. my three children are a joy most of the time and am enjoying them more and more as they get older. boys 22 and 20 and girl 15, all so different with unique personalities and really nice people to talk to to. All three have had bouts of depression to deal with. (yes i feel guilty, my sister asked me did i not consider that i might pass this on before i had them!) Reading and writing save my sanity on a regular basis. I felt 'normal' for about half a day last week for the first time in thirty years and would love to feel it again.
am chef, poet, playwright and heritage specialist when able or fit to work which at the moment is not very often! The past year has been very bad with writing, producing and directing one of my plays the absolute highlight of my year! Have just had three bereavements in the space of a month, one very close friend and other two friends. two were sudden deaths from blood clots and the other had been ill for some time. am still in shock about my friend. He and his family are as close as non family can
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Interests
Reading, writing, swimming, walking on the shore, talking!
Reading, writing, swimming, walking on the shore, talking!
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words
August 3, 2008 3:39am
Words
Words that ripple and roar, whispered softly,
wounding, clipping wings, pulling down.
Those that lift and fill like inconsequential …
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black
August 3, 2008 3:36am
Black
I remember the two days that lasted countless years
when there existed only the wounds
of yesterday and the salt in them of …
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it doesn't go away
August 3, 2008 3:31am
It Doesn't go Away (clifden anthology)
I used to have a brother
actually, I had four
Now with seven sisters
that number is no …
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oh irish..i just saw a hug you sent someone saying you were having a real hard time...i just want to let y ou know you are in my thoughts irish, and i am praying for u...please hang on dear irish..this illness is a battle it can be so dark and terrible...i have been in those utter black places irish..but i am still here today, and i am on different meds, and actually i have had a bunch of very good days..please hang on dear irish..this life is impermanent anyway, one day it will be our turn to leave..i always remember this, that we need to try to store our treasures in heaaven rather than on this earth because this earth is fleeting and everything in it...we will not be here forever dear irish....i know it's hard, but try and realize this and to reach out to god for strength..you know we have so much strength dear irish, i think just living with this terrible debilitating illness has given us so much strength, we don't even realize how much strength we have....and god needs us irish, he needs us to help others...because we have been through so so much darkness, i think it bears in is this compassion, deep compassion for suffering irish, and we need to use this compassion , i think that is our mission...please irish, hang on...i am praying for you dear irish and am here for you anytime you want to message me, or if i'm on we can chat..peace for u dear irish, love, maggie
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please dont kill urself call 1800 suicide or try www.suicide.org hold on ok i read your bp crisis center post
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i pray u feel better
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sorry
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