Journal Entry for November 5, 2009
November 5, 2009 2:34pm
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mousears7
2:16pm, November 5, 2009
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About Me
mousears7
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About Me
I'm 39 years old, (OMG am I really that old??), divorced, a mother of 2 beautiful daughters, Kati 10 and Emily 4 and I'm overweight. :o( . I decided to have GBS and my surgery date was August 27th. I haven't been overweight my whole life. The misery started during my college years when all I did was sit on my rear and study. In high school I was very thin and fit and played every sport in the book. When I got to college, I played some basketball and tennis but then just didn't have time for it anymore with my classes and working nights to pay for school. I began to put on weight and it just didn't stop. I dated a real jerk that didn't help either and just continuted to go downhill. I married in 1997 to an abusive man and continued with him until just a month ago where I finally developed the courage to divorce him. So, now I'm single and very overweight. I suffer from extreme self esteem issues, depression, anxiety/panic attacks, chronic pain, osteoarthritis in both knees, feet problems, SI joint dysfunction, cervical facet syndrome, headaches, TMJ, OCD, and orthastatic tremors. Basically, I have no idea who I am anymore. I'm falling apart and falling fast. Every doctor says I need to lose weight but most of my treatments involve steriod therapy so it's pretty humorous to me. I have tried everything under the sun and then some to lose this weight. Most of my issues and injuries are due to trying to get the weight off in the first place so I just feel like I'm stuck in a viscous circle and constantly in pain. This is the last resort for me and I MUST succeed. I'm scared, I'm excited, I'm so many things. All I know is that I have to learn to control my food and pain and get healthy. I have two children I need to be around for. I HATE being the fat mom. I'm looking for support, new friends, information and any and all words of encouragement I can find. Looking forward to getting to know some of you! Angi
I'm 39 years old, (OMG am I really that old??), divorced, a mother of 2 beautiful daughters, Kati 10 and Emily 4 and I'm overweight. :o( . I decided to have GBS and my surgery date was August 27th. I haven't been overweight my whole life. The misery started during my college years when all I did was sit on my rear and study. In high school I was very thin and fit and played every sport in the book. When I got to college, I played some basketball and tennis but then just didn't have time for it anymore
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Interests
Spending time with my girls, Computers, Reading, Fishing, Movies, Camping, Electronic Gadgets
Spending time with my girls, Computers, Reading, Fishing, Movies, Camping, Electronic Gadgets
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November 5
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mousears7 gave playwrite2 a kiss 2:43pm
Nice big sloppy one for ya! Miss you!…
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mousears7 wrote a journal entry updating 2 goals 2:34pm
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mousears7 and AKAKATT2002 are now friends 2:18pm
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mousears7 and playwrite2 are now friends 2:18pm
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Journal
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Where have I been?
May 9, 2009 12:22pm
Hello to all. I've sure missed hearing from you. I haven't been on DS much. When I do sign in I don't hear from most of you anymore. Sad. …
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Down 108 Pounds
April 6, 2009 7:56pm
Down 108 pounds....weight still coming off which is amazing. Still struggling with my vitamins and the potassium is still low. Have to continue the …
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100 Pounds Lost!!
March 17, 2009 10:41pm
I finally did it!! Lost 100 pounds!! OMG I'm so happy! I never thought I'd get there. I'm just thrilled. Way to go ME!!!!
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I’m With You
I know how frustrating the tremors can be. Hang in there.
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just got back on the site. congrats on all of your accomplishments!!!
Congrats
I am great!!!! Way to go!!!! I am down to 128 lbs...now i have trouble finding sizes 2. Unless I go to junior section and well i do no like those hip jeans...my booty feels like its going to fall out lol I guess they will fit better after the excess skin is removed. Glad to see ya back on =)
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Lookin good! Hey! how ya doin!!!
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Miss You
Checking in to see how u are doing. Miss ya!! Hope things are well.
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Goals
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Support Groups
Close Gastric Bypass Surgery
I've elected GBS and my surgery was Aug 27th. I'm overweight and I suffer from extreme self esteem issues, emotional eating, depression, osteoarthritis, feet problems, SI low back problems, cervical facet syndrome, headaches, and orthastatic tremors. Basically, I have no idea who I am anymore. This is the last resort for me and I MUST succeed. I'm a single mother and I have two children I need and want to be around for. I HATE being the fat mom! Looking for support, inspiration and information.
Treatments
- Dietitian Consult Working / Worked
Close Codependency
Treatments
- Celebrate Recovery Somewhat Helpful
- Enjoyed this but the meetings were too general and wasn't able to talk just about this issue.
- Pets Not Working
- Ended up getting too many animals....also have obsessive compulsive disorder so this didn't work at all.
- Reading Somewhat Helpful
- Just takes a lot of time and hard to find the right books.
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
- People are just sick of hearing about it and can't afford going to therapy anymore.
Open Shopping Addiction
If I get my mind set on something I have to have it. Sometimes more than one just in case something happens to the first. My most recent set back was getting some pets to help fill a void when going through a divorce and I ended up with 14 birds, 7 frogs, an anole, a chameleon, 2 kittens and 2 fish in a 6 month period and I already owned 2 dogs and 2 cats. WOW huh! I seriously need help! I just don't understand why I can't keep this under control! HELP!
Open Obesity
Treatments
- Gastric Bypass Surgery Too Soon to Tell
- Surgery date is Sept 24th
- Jenny Craig Not Working
- Too expensive
- Meridia Somewhat Helpful
- Worked for a short time.
- NutriSystem Not Working
- Too expensive
- Physical Exercise Working / Worked
- Worked but have too many physical limitations and disabilities. All I can do now is swim and it's hard to lose weight that way.
- Swimming Too Soon to Tell
- Topamax Not Working
- I take this daily for orthostatic tremor but doesn't help for weight loss at all for me.
- Weight Watchers Working / Worked
- Lost 35 lbs but gained it back after my pregnancy. Just couldn't afford to keep going.
- Xenical Somewhat Helpful
- Worked short term but couldn't afford to keep taking.
Open Breakups & Divorce
Treatments
- Couples Counseling Working / Worked
- Family Therapy Not Working
- Didn't work for the marriage. Unable to get the other person I was dating into counseling with me.
- Forgiveness Not Working
- I couldn't forgive and he couldn't forgive me.
- Music Not Working
- Tried taking up the piano
- Pets Not Working
- Ended up with too many pets.
- Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful
- Nice to be able to talk and get it out.
- Reading Not Working
- Just didn't help
- Support from Friends & Family Not Working
- Don't have much support as they are going through the same things right now.
- Support Groups Somewhat Helpful
- Nice to be able to talk.
- Talking Not Working
- People are just tired of hearing it.
Open Depression
Treatments
- Celexa Not Working
- Cymbalta Not Working
- Effexor Not Working
- Lexapro Not Working
- Paxil Not Working
- Positive Thinking Not Working
- Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful
- Support from Friends & Family Somewhat Helpful
- Trazodone Not Working
- Wellbutrin Not Working
- Zoloft Not Working
- Celexa Working / Worked
Open Back Pain
Treatments
- Chiropractic Adjustment Not Working
- Cortisone (Injection) Not Working
- Epidural Injection Somewhat Helpful
- Flexeril Not Working
- Heat Somewhat Helpful
- Hydrocodone Somewhat Helpful
- Ibuprofen Not Working
- Morphine Somewhat Helpful
- Physical Therapy Not Working
- Relaxation Not Working
- Stretching Not Working
- TENS Not Working
Open Essential Tremor
mousears7 hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Open Chronic Pain
Treatments
- Chiropractic Adjustment Not Working
- Cymbalta Not Working
- Flexeril Not Working
- Heat Somewhat Helpful
- Lyrica Not Working
- Morphine Somewhat Helpful
- Nerve Blocks Not Working
- Neurontin Not Working
- Oxycodone Not Working
- Physical Therapy Not Working
- TENS Not Working
- Topamax Not Working
Open Anxiety
mousears7 hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Open Financial Challenges
Treatments
- Budgeting Somewhat Helpful
- Credit Counseling Not Working
- Cut Up Credit Cards Not Working
- Debt Consolidation Not Working
- Filing for Bankruptcy Too Soon to Tell
- Holding a Garage Sale Somewhat Helpful
Open TMJ
Was injured on the job a year ago and it's still very painful. Pain the jaw, ears, headaches, eyes. Nothing seems to take the pain away.
Treatments
- CranioSacral Therapy Not Working
- Mouthguard Not Working
Open Healthy Sex
mousears7 hasn’t entered any details for this support group.
