yankeeangel92's Journal

There's No Place to Go But Up

I remember that day,
When he took my little hand.
Said, "want me to take you around?"
I pedaled and breaked,
Just like Daddy said.
So why did I fall to the ground?
He calmed his baby down
And whispered in my ear-
"It's true, you've had bad luck.
But when you hit the bottom,
Remember these words:
There's no place to go but up."

Plates and food hit the walls,
Shouts so loud I can't sleep.
I cry, "will this fight ever stop?"
I try to be strong for her
My shoulders absorb tears
"Mom, should I go get the mop?"
I calmed her down
And then she said-
"It's true, we've had bad luck.
But when you hit the bottom,
Remember these words:
There's no place to go but up."

Friends whispered and turned,
As I broke more and more.
"God, why won't you defend?"
Emergency room prayers
I woke sad but not alone
"Hunny, can't I be your friend?"
My mom calmed me down
And spoke to my heart-
"It's true you've had bad luck.
But when you hit the bottom,
Remember these words:
There's no place to go but up."
 
"Dad's in jail for murder,
Mom's always drugged."
He asks, "who would feed them if I hid?"
"Brother turned up dead,
Baby sister is my job.
Why should I be a parent, when i'm still a kid?"
I calmed him down
And as my heart broke, I said-
"It's true, you've had bad luck.
But when you hit the bottom,
Remember these words:
There's no place to go but up."

I see the look in your eyes,
I hear "I love you no more."
I wonder, "is this all that's left?"
I dont blame you for it,
We both knew we were done.
But why can't I catch my breath?
I calmed myself down,
And thought in my head-
"It's true, I've had bad luck.
But when you hit the bottom,
Remember these words:
There's no place to go but up."

Each day and night,
Impossible to cope.
Aren't I too young to feel pain?
Middle of the night,
Tears never stop.
How am I supposed to stay sane?
Kase calmed me down,
rubbed my back and said-
"It's true, you've had bad luck.
But when you hit the bottom,
Remember these words:
There's no place to go but up."

Too many mistakes
So many regrets
How can I ever make it right?
Sorrowful, guilty
Ashamed, apologetic
"Will you take my past and overwrite?"
The Lord calmed me down,
And spoke to my soul-
"It's true, you've had bad luck.
But when you hit the bottom,
Remember these words:
There's no place to go but up."