freedomcanhappen's Journal

So,

I just spent 30 minutes writing a rather long entry about choice and the idea of

The third Choice

that I never knew about that I do know now, and it is THE choice that provides the ability to see, feel, know

HOPE

Now, I am not going to write it all again.  I cant.  it was spontaneaous and just was.  but I guess not meant to be kept record of it as it was.

Basically.  over 10 years ago in treatment I was given this metaphor:

You are sitting at a dining table and the server comes over and says these are your choices for what to eat. 

1) here, I have a piece of chocolate cake

2)here, I have a piece of chocolate cake

You sit there very confused and forlorn because you are allergic to chocolate cake.

They reffered to this as a means to help us look at that that is what we had in the past and therefore we don't need to feel guilty or dirty or evil because it is not a valid choice to be made.  Either way, negative were the results.

Annafl. shock and die.........

They would say, so,  you are not dirty or anything, this is proof,  etc.  so, no need to hurt yourslef or punish yourself or feel bad about yourself in any way.  and life is good. beautiful etc.

This in a nutshelll of course.

But.

for me, I just got more angry and became more identified with being a victim.  I said, look, these peope were nasty and mean and bad, and so I had no choice, poor mee.............etc etc etc.  and I spued more insult and hate and rage against myself and others.

They never told me that there was a Third Choice.  which was

YOU CAN CHOOSE NOT TO EAT EITHER PIECE OF CAKE

Wow, that choice provides a chance for a different outcome....which means....HOPE....

Does it mean a guarantee of good, safety etc? happiness?  no, of course not.  nothing ever does....but hope for somthing different whatever it might be.

I can tell you that I choose the Third Choice on a daily basis now.

And, man, hope just keeps grwoing.  possiblity just keep growing.  Much is positive and happy etc.  And some things are very difficult and painful and suck quite frankly.

But,  hope never ceases to exist.  and therefore even in the hard stuff, I have peace in my life.  and with that, I no longer need to "do" anyting. My health grows and I get out of life what I always wanted from my self destruction.

Peace be with you..

I pray for you to come to know aobut the Third Choice Too.