freedomcanhappen's Journal

Dear friends.

I want to hug everyone.  I have been able to read and update some of you and will continue to update and check in hopefully ove the next few days.

My computer is not back yet... yikes!!  that doesn't seem like a good thing.

anyway, woke up early this morning.  think I am excited.  have a community festival this weekend and finishing up getting ready for it.  wow, I think it is going to be a lot of fun!!

I have just put my heart and soul into my part of the festival.  and I am tired.

health wise.  I think I am on edrinoline because the festival and my parents are arriving saturday too for a visit.  My mom and I are going to do some canning together.

But, the doc has me taking a medication to see if it will help,  (lol, it was originally for men with enlarging prostates).  and I have to keep a journal of functioning and go back to him.  So, taking it day by day.

Keep heart my friends!!  Life is good.  Life is worth it.  I would not change a thing about my life as it is or as it was, because it is what led me to where I am today.

"I neither regret the past nor wish to shut the door on it"  however, I choose not to live in it, today.

Happy just is.  It could never be better or something more than it is at this moment. because it jsut is. 

Recently I was thinking about this.  someone talked about being happy was hard because they always knew it could be better.

I responded, "what if there didn't have to be any qualifications?  what if it just was.?  just because it is?  And you know what, I was reminded of how precious and fragile life is.  it helps me not take for granted the idea of living one day at a time and staying in the present.

I used to never understand what "living in the present" meant.  It baffled me.  Now, it just is.  and my invovment and energy in life increases.  My feelings of being a part of life is so deep when i am in today!  I no longer feel isolated and alone and disconnected.

You are because you are.  I am because I am.  and WE ARE ALL BEAUTIFULLY AND WONDERFULLY MADE!

You are miralces my friends!  laugh much and love and be loved.