freedomcanhappen's Journal

LOL!!! Just having this funny hunger sensation I have not felt in many years and I don't know how this is possible.

My stomach growled which just doesn't really happen.  I wrecked my parystolsis (i have no idea how to spell)  basically my food hasn't moved through my stomach without help for many years.

the only way I can explain this feeling of my gut being actually empty and growled is to say that my food is actually moving through my system better. and its really weird.

I laugh because it is so odd.  I haven't felt hunger pains sense age 20 probably. 

It not a mind hunger which is what usually drives my obsessions.

So, I actually am not having an obsession over it or anything negative coming to mind? as far as behaviors or anything.  it is actually quite the opposite.

I don't even know? really? how to respond to actual growl.  When it happened my husband heard it and didn't even know what that was and I said, "honey, that was my tummy!"  He was a s puzzled and when I said this is really weird but this can only mean one thing that my food is moving and this sensation and and and. . . .Honey! "my tummy is getting better somehow?"  He said, well that can only be a good thing.  And we both smiled.

But I have no clue how this is happening.  I have to make a doc appt this week because i think I have another UTI, which is an entirely different story but

I can't really wait to say, DOC! listen to whats  happening?  listen to my belly? please? this is the oddest most strangley attractive thing that seems to be happening?  is this true?  What is this? and by the way. another UTI I think but no matter. LISTEN!! LOL at myself.

LOL!!!!

And I am so not sleeping which I am getting exhausted but strangley not crashing.

I am okay.  Usually I become a basket case by now.  and I am not.  However frustrating it is, I am continuing stuff of living without being incredibly off.

hes been so worried about it, and He even has to admit that something is different.  I am not falling apart. or a basket case or such.

I have been really depressed but that seems to be a bit better.  motivation and the abiltiy to do things.

My show went up yesterday and I gave a talk today and am gving another talk on Saturday.  and very much enjoyed it.  like never ever before.

A very weird thing. no explanation.

I smile and say thank you God.

And yes to update my goal I am still sober today.