freedomcanhappen's Journal

Wow, I am going back to OA.

I know the 12 steps work in my life. and I have witnessed worked in other peoples lives so I am going to go back.  I said I would not leave until the miracle happens. and I don't plan to .  I didn't really want to leave in the first place.

My situation became so overwhelming and I went into the hospital and the incomprehensible demoralization of what was going on was just too much. but I did not really want t o stay away forever.

I want the miracle.

And, this time take is slow.  I have my one behavior I want to work on.  as it relates to my disorder.

Beofre I tried again and again to do everything at once.  and it didn't work. not in th eleast.  I was trying to be perfect. 

For Lent I am giving up perfection.  So

I am going to go tonight.  with no expectations.  no plans. no agendas

I pray for willingness to listen