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1:18pm Monday
I am singing a song in my head. incase the title sounds a bit weird.
But that is who I am I am a weirdo and you know its okay.
The weather is just beautiful. I tried to talk hubby into going to camp because it is so beautiiful but we agreed to go up for the day tomorrow. yeah!
I am choosing postivie behaviors today. and I feel better.
not fixed. not perfect.
I realized that that was part of my problem I see two things. being perfect or disappearing. Either I have to be perfect or I have to disappear. and that bites me in the A-- everytime.
So, tomorrow, if not to windy I am going to build a fire and throw that belief out. and liet the smoke carry it up to God. He can have it. it just brings me misery.
Anyway, I am just working on the computer doing art stuff to try to get my work out there.
Love yall.
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Hey if we were normal life would be extremely boring so weird is awesome. You sound as if you really getting there its great.
I can totally understand where you are coming from with the being perfect and disapearing; i am exactly the same in between is just not something familliar or not that i would even knowwhat to do in the instance anyway. Love ya xx
jen87
Wow what an amazing concept! Finding the balance between the perfection and disappearing. Sounds like being human being. Not just a human being, but a human doing! Love your journals, you're an amazing woman. xo
Gabrador
Now you've got that song stuck in my head too. Can't even remember the song or what it's called but I think it was something by Journey? xo
Gabrador