VBlanchette's Journal

Well, I ended up taking Kendyl in to see the Peds, and she has scarlet fever!  Poor bear!  I picked her up from daycare and my heart broke!  She was sooooo sick, she was pale, her eyes had dark circles and she was so wiped out she couldn't even cry!  She just whined.  When I went to change her diaper, she didn't even put up a fight.  She was so sick all she could do was lay there and moan!  I took her in and she had scarlet fever, and she was started on Cefzil.  Now she has GI Upset (gas and diarrhea) from it.  Poor girl is too much like her mommy.  I get upset stomach from antibiotics too.  I am worried about thrush since I am still breastfeeding her.  After 12 hours on antibiotics (Abx) her fever broke and she started to play on the floor next to me (instead of clinging to me).  24hrs after abx, she started to eat food again!  I had been worried since she had been refusing food for about a week!  Poor baby had a sore throat.  When the peds looked at her, he had me look inside and it was SOOOO red and SOOOOOO swollen, and there were tons of spots on the back of her throat.  I felt horrible for letting her go so long before taking her in!  And I'm a nurse!  I just figured it was viral and would pass, but when she started running a temp and it was going on a week, I took her in. 

King is pretty excited for Christmas.  He had his band concert on Tuesday, but I couldn't go cause Kendyl had a fever, and he was really hurt.  I didn't tell him I wasn't going if Kendyl was still sick because I had been up with her the whole night before and didn't wake up to my alarm, so I didn't see him before he left for school.  There he stood at his concert, looking for me and his little heart breaking cause he thought his mama forgot about him.  He was so sad when he got home from school.  I felt horrible cause I knew he would be upset, but I couldn't go!  I didn't want him to resent Kendyl so they opened each other's gifts.  That seemed to help.  He cheered up right away!  I am sad I did't get to see him play his trumpet.  It's hard cause since Kendyl has been born, I don't get to do  as much with him.  He's gone so long without sharing his mama, I worry it'll be too much for him.  I don't want him to resent his little sister.  We got a gift for him from her, and he got her a gift for her with his allowance.  I try to give him attention, but sometimes it's all scolding!  He gets scolded for homework or chores.  I hate it, I just want to spend the time with him like we used to.  I used to lay with him before I laid down for my nap before work and we would talk.  Now, I can't do it very often anymore.  It makes me sad. 

Me and Kevin are getting along ok.  I have vacation for a week, so I am hoping to get things done around the house.  Anxiety is better, and I am not feeling so depressed.  I am looking forward to the new year!  I am really excited for Christmas too.  I can't wait to give King and Kendyl their gifts!