chichiguita's Journal

I appear to be back into the pain again. 

I know I need to spend the time in the pain--but it hurts and it is so hard to do the things I need to do.  I want to curl into a ball, or dissappear.  

It hurts.  

I feel a lot of the rejection today.  

And the loss of the dream.  

When I turned on itunes this morning, Steve Taylor was crooning about "feeling fine everytime she's around me now"--I just had to cry.  

He used to feel that way about me--or I thought he did.  

Now he wants me gone so he can feel that way about someone else.  Someone better.  

What is wrong with me?  I am devastated.  I feel so lost and broken today.  

BUT

I know it will pass.  

I will do what I need to do today--including the lawyer--and I will make it through this.

This I resolve.