angiejan5th1984's Journal

Well tomorrow is my 25th birthday, and things don't look like they are looking up for me.. Well I did get everything straightened out with welfare I am waiting for my medical card to come in the mail so that I can make my appointments.. I have to see the TMJ sepcialist.. The phychiatrist.. The pulmonologist.. And whatever else I need.. It seems like me and my boyfriend aren't going to make it.. He seems to hold a grudge about me not working.. But I do get cash and food stamps to help out... He says that it isn't 50/50 anymore.. I can't work right now.. I did a little bit of laundy and my back went into spasm.. I have been laying on the heating pad for the last hour.. I don't know he has been so moody lately like he doesn't want to be around me at all anymore.. It is a shame to see a four year relationship end.. but i just can't be around his mood swings and him blaming me for everything.. And not having sex.. Because he can't or isn't in the mood.. We haven't had sex in like 2 months.. and that isn't fair to me...