i had a daily strength account before but i freaked out at the idea of people reading it, i'm giving it another try now. im going to a new collage soon and im really excited because i didnt exactly have a good time in my old school. i am engaded to an absolutly beautiful person, he really has changed my life. ...but i still have this damn depression on my shoulders. i recently found out that i have MRKH its a genetic ilness that comes up in 1 in 5000 women and ruins their lives. it means i can never carry a child because i have no womb, and honestly it makes me feel like less of a women and i feel ugly.
i had a daily strength account before but i freaked out at the idea of people reading it, i'm giving it another try now. im going to a new collage soon and im really excited because i didnt exactly have a good time in my old school. i am engaded to an absolutly beautiful person, he really has changed my life. ...but i still have this damn depression on my shoulders. i recently found out that i have MRKH its a genetic ilness that comes up in 1 in 5000 women and ruins their lives. it means i can never
my name is rose and i love art and music. i lovce to paint, draw and photograph. my goal is to be a well known artist but i'll settle for anything aslong as im makinmg my living from doing what i love- creating. i'm not all that good but i love art so much that i hope my love for it will continue to inspire me.
my name is rose and i love art and music. i lovce to paint, draw and photograph. my goal is to be a well
July 24, 2009 4:51am
what the hell am i doing?
i dont want or need the things i steal, i usally get rid of the after! just a couple of minuted ago i was caught trying to …
January 23, 2009 5:51pm
i have finaly got the courage to tell my therapist that i NEED new medication and that i wont take no for an answer.
i just refuse to believe …
November 20, 2008 3:34pm
i just found out that i do not and never will have a womb.
i can never get pregnant and give birth.
i dont feel like a real woman.
i got so depressed …
September 7, 2008 12:57pm
i stayed at sams house last night, no nightmares for me, he takes away all my fears. ^_^
i've had two days a collage so far, they went okay but i …
September 2, 2008 3:35pm
im so scared, i cant stop shaking, this shake, fucking constant disply of nerves, it is really upsetting me.
im so scared about going to collage, im …
some flowers for a rose love bob
thanks for your hug! it really helped me feel much better!!! You really know how to make a person feel much better! your a pretty awesome person and i hope you know that. thanks again. hope your doing GREAT!!!
hi will u be my friend? hope u are having a fun weekend. :-)
Thank you for the hug, sorry it has taken me a while to respond but had to let our sick cat Missy sleep forever yesterday (tuesday) so am feeling shattered. take care and hoping your day is a good one.
hoping you are well and the day has dawned bright and happy for you. sending hugs your way.
my father also suffers from depression so it is part genetic but envionmental factors like being bullied, abused and rape worsened it.
as a child i cut my hands so i couldnt touch people then when the depression got bad it turned into punishment and after and during the sexual abuse it became self mutilation in an attempt to put scary men off me.
i am very very paranoid and a single glance from a 'strange man' can make my cry, shake, hypoventalte, run or colapse.. although these tings seem to happen all at the same time. >_
i was stalked by a boy and he sexually and emotionally abused me, later i was to meet a guy that i thought could help me - he raped me.
was raped at the age of 14.
i have always grown up thinking that it was okay to like girls and boys too but after the stalker and rapist (both men) i was convinced i was a lesbian. i have dated lots of boys just because they wanted me and was only attracted to a few of them, i am now engaged to a guy and i really do think he is the most attractive thing ever but if it weren't for him i probably would go back to only girls.
i was bullied lots as a child and then also bullied into all sorts of things by teh stalker boy. he played clever mind games and he also hurt me sometimes too, most of the time touching me sexually but sometimes he got voilent too.
i am mostky nervous around men and especoially in stituations where i am alone besides only a few other people. big crowds scare me. i seem to be developing a shake...
i dont know, i think i have kleptomania (amung other things) but i entered the mental health care system when i was 12 and my origional diagnosis was wrong, they have never told me whats wrong with me, i hoping someone here can.
i suffer from panic attacks and everywhere i go i seem to already know the worst cas senario and from that i rack my excape routes. but if there are no escape routs i panic. i rarely every do social things without my fiance. but i dont mind. i like doing art on my own. and sometimes i feel really selfish because i want sam to stay at home with me and i know that it wrong. i also find my self either scared or frustrated with people i have a very low tolerance for stupidity so i dont go out much.
i am terrified of driving!
