flowerchild23's Journal

today went better than expected, I think I will like my new therapist, im still getting to know her but from what I can tell, shes going to be good for me! She still does not know me as well as I would like her to know me because of some of the things she talked about, it seems she is assuming what kind of mother I have, and shes got it all wrong, making the whole thing frustrating because she is now assuming who i am because of the experiences with my mother or how my mother treated me. I will have to reiterate the fact that my mother is not well herself and that just because she is raising my child does not mean she did all she could for me, I got the shittier end of the stick as far as im concerned and hopefully she will understand that a little better once she gets to know me. The thing i did not like her saying to me was " you've been well looked after now your mother cant look after you anymore, its not her problem", " you need to start looking after yourself" I DO look after myself, and i always did and always will. Ive been in a mixed episode for a week now and ive been annoyed, so i might have to pop a zyprexa if i get too crazy. Other than that I hate this illness and we will see if this therapy makes any kind of a difference in my life, because i would hope that it can so i can propel myself further and accomplish more