alone again
October 12, 2009 12:42pm
So its thanksgiving day today, and my mother in law has put on a dinner, I let my hubby go alone, I dont like to face the scrutiny of the crowd …
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flowerchild23
3:43pm Friday
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About Me
flowerchild23
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About Me
I'm 25, I'm married and I have 2 beautiful girls, one is 9 and the other will be a year in april, they dont live with me but i see them when i am able to since we dont have a car and other issues. I also have a third kid: my bipolar aside from that I have terrible anxiety/OCD/PPD and most likely PTSD from past trauma. I got diagnosed with bipolar 2 with rapid cycling when I was 18 but I am only just coming to terms with it now, kind of late but hey you know how it is. My hubby is incredibly supportive and is my best friend, we make a great team. My hubs is a recovering addict and suffers from depression.
I'm 25, I'm married and I have 2 beautiful girls, one is 9 and the other will be a year in april, they dont live with me but i see them when i am able to since we dont have a car and other issues. I also have a third kid: my bipolar aside from that I have terrible anxiety/OCD/PPD and most likely PTSD from past trauma. I got diagnosed with bipolar 2 with rapid cycling when I was 18 but I am only just coming to terms with it now, kind of late but hey you know how it is. My hubby is incredibly supportive
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music has help me get by all my life, love my music if I could have the soundtrack which describes my life it would include the following: I'm a window ( Matthew Good), Comfortably numb ( Pink Floyd), seudio ( Phil Collins) Boulevard of broken dreams ( Green day) Mr. President and Who knew ( Pink) New moon and turn out the lights and try ( Nelly Furtado) Doll parts ( Hole) Nothing else matters ( Metallica) Perfect drug ( Nine inch nails) November rain and sweet of mine ( Guns n roses)
music has help me get by all my life, love my music if I could have the soundtrack which describes my
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3 hugs received, 2 hugs given
Friday
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flowerchild23 updated their status 3:43pm
fuck everything…
Tuesday
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flowerchild23 gave fieldofdaisies flowers 9:21pm
shit Maggie, sorry you were in the hospital, that really blows!!! ((((hugs)))…
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flowerchild23 gave fieldofdaisies a hug 9:00pm
hey how have you been?? ((((hugs))) I havent come on much lately, hope your doing good !!!…
October 30
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flowerchild23 wrote a discussion post in the Kidney Stones support group: greyish coloured stones 11:19am
Yesterday I passed some stones and caught them so I could keep them for the uro, they were like a greyish…
October 28
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flowerchild23 gave laceysue a hug 7:39pm
thanks for the add, welcome to the board, its really a great place, its helped keep my sanity !!! ((((((hugs))))…
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Second visit with the therapist
October 8, 2009 4:20pm
today went better than expected, I think I will like my new therapist, im still getting to know her but from what I can tell, shes going to be good …
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General update
September 12, 2009 6:49pm
So I should be happy because i finally had the dreaded surgery i was worrying so much about, and as usual im still miserable, coming out of this …
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lmao, you crack me up flowerchild!!!!!yah, i'm out now , kind of safe, and hmmm, kind of sound? anyway, big huge hug for u;) love, maggie
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hey flower..was in hospital about a month ago, stayed for 10 days...they increased my lithium to 1500mg daily, and added 15 mg of zyprexa, they took me off the celexa cuz they thought i was very manic...now that i'm home a bit, i'm fighting depression again, so my pdoc put me back on celexa, took my first dose yesterday:) hope it kicks ass!!!! anyway, miss u and hope to see more of you around flowerchild:) :) big huge hug, maggie
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Having my hysterectomy 4 years ago was the best thing i have ever had i was hurting so bad. After they did the sugery they found a cyst ALOT of scar tissue and 2 other thingd i cant think at the moment.(sorry alot of issues with H-pylori with 15 year old) So my mind is going 100 miles a minute. Good luck!
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Close Bipolar Disorder
I was diagnosed as having bipolar disorder as well as OCD and Panic disorder. I was diagnosed about 8 yrs ago. I've gone through various treatments and medication regiments, with none of them being the least beneficial to me,only driving me further into my own personal insanity. I feel so alone and I've no support, and don't believe that anyone could possibly understand this hell unless they are living it themselves. Just looking to communicate with people who share my frustrations.
Treatments
- Abilify Too Soon to Tell
- never tried
- Depakote Not Working
- was on depakote for years, did not make a difference
- Dialectical Behavioral Therapy Not Working
- No matter what anyone tries to teach me, I've always returned to my old patterns
- Equetro Too Soon to Tell
- never tried
- Fish Oil Too Soon to Tell
- never tried
- Geodon Too Soon to Tell
- never tried
- Group Therapy Not Working
- Group has never helped me, I need one on one
- Haldol Too Soon to Tell
- never tried
- Holistic Health Too Soon to Tell
- have never tried, do not believe in natural sources
- Lamictal Too Soon to Tell
- have never tried
- Lithium Working / Worked
- Have not seen much of an improvement, but am usually alot worse without my meds. Doctor is slowly increasing to improve my mood.
Close Irritable Bowel Syndrome (IBS)
since the birth of my first child over 8 years ago, I've had problems with constipation/diarrhea and very painful stomach cramps. Ive tried doing diet restrictions and changes but nothing seems to make a difference.
Treatments
- Acidophilus Somewhat Helpful
- it helps keep me regular
- High Fiber Diet Not Working
- sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn't it really depends on how irritated my bowel is to begin with
- Probiotics Not Working
- I find when I stopped using them, my symptoms returned with a vengance
Open Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder
flowerchild23 hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Open Healthy Sex
flowerchild23 hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Open Female Sexual Issues
problems with ovarian cysts, has gotten worse since having my kids
Open Pre-menstrual Syndrome (PMS)
flowerchild23 hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Open Physical & Emotional Abuse
flowerchild23 hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Open Breast Cancer
flowerchild23 hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Open Autism / Autism Spectrum
my 9 yr old daughter has just been dx with PDD-NOS, she is also dx'd ADHD
Treatments
- Concerta Working / Worked
Open Parenting Toddlers (1-3)
I have a 14 month old daughter
Open Gallstones
flowerchild23 hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Open Kidney Stones
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