LoriWantsHealing's Journal

Hello All,

This worry is not produtive,  I am jounaling here and then hopefully putting ti to rst and turnng it over to the care of God.  I had a painful and brutually honest talk with my sister yesterday.  She is a problem relationship for me for many reasons.  She didn't know it and I was afraid to tell her.  she has a scary and grudge holding temper.  I have been distancing from my sister and setting boundries, but it is painful.  I would much prefer a healthy relationship with her. We had some break throughs and I pray the Lord will shower us both with His healing mercy.  I pray for calm, peace and release.  

Of course my sister never had any idea how bad she was pushing my buttons or upsetting me.  She is the one who has expectations and demand.  She has disabled kids and does not network or get to know people.  She has no outside resources and refuses to get them for an overwhelming and choatic home life.   ahh here I am lapsing into my expectations of her.  God, can I accept that she most likely will never get help!!  Can I jus let it go.  I am powerless.  I have wasted so much time and energy on her problems.  I can't fix them or pompt her to fix them.  God please lift this burden from me, move me to be able to love with mercy and compassion, but not fix.

God I pray for your Holy Spriti to reign in my heart.  I pray for relief from anger and bitterness.  I pray for this lenghty, draining, interaction with my sister to result in a renwed relationship.  I pary not to be sick with worry.  I pray for my fears  to cease.  Come, come Holy Spirit, dwell in me.  I am trusting in you.  I put my trust ing you.

Love,

Lori