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CherieS 
12:08pm, January 19, 2009
I got a letter yesterday that I now have medical! Wooooooot! The only requirement is that I get treatment. Duh, why do you think I applied in the first place. Back in July. But I finally have it. And should get a lil bit of money, so I will have gas to go to my appointments. Deep breath.... I know its going to get worse before it gets better, because I need to get things out thru therapy. But I'm happy, I have a great plan. I'm going to get back to going to church. I finally figured out I could and should ask for help and ask the ushers to say my a spot by the door. That way I wont feel trapped and my agoraphobia will be controllable. A dear friend from Church is keeping me in her prayers and we still chat. I had to miss the women's bible study today since I have been sick for about two weeks. I was really coughing this morning, so I realized I shouldnt go because I would hate to give this to anyone else. Have I mentioned I'm happy? I'm going to start going back to my boxing gym as well. I'm going to dig in and fight my agoraphobia. I took time off and just gave up. It was a nice break. Felt like I was always fighting. And I isolated myself so much everyone forgot about me. Well not everyone. A few people here never did, and a few friends have just been waiting for me to come around. I have found a way to get books for free on my computer. So I have been able to get new books to read without leaving the house. God blesses me abundantly. Prayer really does work. I apologize to my friends that don't have the same beliefs as me. My intention is not to say I am right and you are wrong. Only to praise God for what he has given me. Those fellow Christains that dont understand this logic, please.... don't judge other people. It is not for us to decide who gets to Heaven and who does not. Not on Earth, and not in Heaven will we be the judge. So while on Earth love everyone. I have Pagan and Diest friends that I cherish. They respect my faith, I respect theirs. The only faiths I can not accept are those that follow Satan. And those that practice dark magic. No negative hurtful things for me thank you. Everyone else I embrace. For when I am asked What I did on Earth, I can truly say I loved everyone as you have loved me.
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Well I am glad to see your light is getting brighter and getting back into things and channeling your mind somewhere else gives not time for the agoraphobia. I am proud of you keep up the good work....>C
csgrcia
I am so very happy for you, cherie, you deserve every bit of happiness, love and hugs Tiaoxox
TJlightoflove
I am happy to read and hear that the light is getting better at the end of the tunnel. It is also good to make a plan. I am glad to read about your plan. We all go through mountains and valleys. Love andhugs to you and yours. Judi
Judibm
good to hear you got the medical and are going to get therapy.keep moving forward.hugz
RainyDey
IM PROUD OF YOU AND WLD LIKE TO STAND NEXT TO YOU SO WHEN THE BLESSING START TO RUN OFF OF YOU I WILL BE THERE TO CAUTH THEM! AND AM ALSO AN AGORAPHOBIC NOT FUN BY ANYMEANS OF THE WORD! GLAD YOUR GETTING HELP! lOVE PAT--Raggy1
Raggy1
I'M SO HAPPY FOR YOU SWEETHEART!!!!!!! (((BIG HUGS))) LOVE, THERESA
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