Abotsd's Journal

where there's life there's hope. spoke to son in jerusalem. and daughter in law. nice people. glad to see them looking well. understanding son's problems much better since i've been acknowleging my own.  sent lovely photo of grandkids at cousin's wedding. jake leaves weddings earley, as do i. no stamina. nervous people. he's studying torah, gemorah, again and i am very happy to see this. his wonderful wife supports him in his studies. he looks great. bar mitsvah next august. BH>hoping to go, of course. want brother to go and siblings, too. money!  maybe i could work a little again?

selling is really an energy business. need a lot of energy to cope with people and various problems in selling homes. loved it. made most people very happy with their choices. try not to influence too much. point out positives and negatives. and tell them to drive by in the night. things sure do look different at night and at rush hours.  i live near a school and bought my house in the summer, not realizing how many cars would be parking on this street during the school year. it's good to househunt in the rain. you can check for leaks. and run offs. it's really a very detailed business. i enjoyed it and was able to buy this little house for us. now, of course, business is so slow.  hoping that more people will get jobs again. very stressful, being out of work. we build our lives around our work. so many able people in their 40s and 50's too young to retire and not finding employment. shocking.  what has happened to our America?

going to read the newspaper. take a bath, and talk to daughters, i hope. like to tie up the ends on sunday. week is finished. husband still a little sick but improving and my sore throat is better, too. lucky for us it wasn't swine flu. and we did check in with our drs. i called mine at home by mistake. she was very nice about it. i felt so silly. was trying to call the office. she sounded lonely. a beautiful woman. hard to be alone.

son in la coming tomorrow. now that we're not so sick and contagious.  always excitement when he's here.  better to call it that than hysteria. diva coming. miss him a lot and yet, have to recover from his visits. need a quiet life. easily upset with this fibro.  don't like to use xanex, it knocks me out even in the smallest dose.

can't believe i missed writing in journal. or did i lose it?  days run together when i don't get out.and the weather's been so nice here. hot, dry, and a little breezy.  appetites back. don't want to see my life disapearing in this illness. lots of years to use wisely. not just survive.