Journal Entry for July 31, 2009
July 31, 2009 12:15am
so its been a really long time since ive been here and ive really missed all u guys and i hope u all have been doing well...ive really been in denial …
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littlebittyjen
9:05pm, July 28, 2009
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About Me
littlebittyjen
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About Me
theres so much to tell, i guess here it is if u want to read it...i started cutting myself when i was 10, i havent done that since i was 22...i have attempted suicide multiple times and ended up in the hospital several times...which seemed to make me worse, rather than better, i was raised by a bunch of idiots who i should have as little contact as possible with, but that never happens does it? i have been raped several times in my life, the first time when i was 17 and was also my first time having sex, some times in between then and now that i choose to forget and also recently about 2 months ago i was raped again, a little more violently and enough to make me go to the police and go through this vicious shit over and over again every day. i guess that is why im here because there are not many (few actually) ppl in my life to talk to about it and ppl here seem to really care and understand my shit. thats what i call it.
theres so much to tell, i guess here it is if u want to read it...i started cutting myself when i was 10, i havent done that since i was 22...i have attempted suicide multiple times and ended up in the hospital several times...which seemed to make me worse, rather than better, i was raised by a bunch of idiots who i should have as little contact as possible with, but that never happens does it? i have been raped several times in my life, the first time when i was 17 and was also my first time having
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on a lighter note, i love my baby boy, he is 18 months old and my entire world, or whatever is left of it and i try to be as whole as i can for him and hide my pain from him because i dont want to screw him up. not doing too well at that but i try so hard.
on a lighter note, i love my baby boy, he is 18 months old and my entire world, or whatever is left of
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still thinking of you, hope you find a job soon. Don't worry so much about what other people think of you just be yourself.hugs to you and your son, twopeople
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Close Rape
littlebittyjen hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Close Self-Injury
i started cutting myself when i was about 12 and it continued until i was 22. I almost died several times because i cut so deep. the scars are horrible, but i forget about it until someone asks me about it.
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Not Working
- nothing worked for me, but i guess i grew out of it for the sake of my son
Open Fibromyalgia
i was diagnosed with fibro back in 2002. it was quite bad at the time, and has gotten better and worse. im quite amazed that its not bad right now...it should be according to the rules of the disease but maybe its just too much for my body to handle at once who knows...
Treatments
- Aqua Therapy Somewhat Helpful
- Cyclobenzaprine Not Working
- took it at bed time, still do occasionally for sleep help, but didnt work for me at all.
- Effexor Not Working
- had horrible side effects from this drug, nightmares were unreal, i thought i was awake and being stalked by creatures outside my window...scary
- Heat Somewhat Helpful
- Neurontin Not Working
- Vitamin B12 Somewhat Helpful
Open Depression in Children
i have a 3 year old step son who is possibly depressed, im not sure if his behavior is normal for his age or not.
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- Talking Somewhat Helpful
- he makes comments and we try to talk it out
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