AnnualGecko

About Me

Name's Andy, I used to live in England, but I have lived out in Cyprus for the last 4 years which I have really enjoyed. I have struggled with depression since the age of about 14 for various reasons. Ended up dropping out of school before GCSE's, and found it hard to keep a job. I went to a large number of different 'shrinks' but none of which seemed to help. I was really, really low, I attempted suicide, regularly self harmed, and was on citalopram for about 4/5 years. I left home when I was 17, as I couldnt live with my parents any longer and they couldnt live with me! We have had severe problems with each other. I moved in with my girlfriend at the time who I had been with for about 2 years. She was really abusive, mentally and physically, almost every day. She really couldnt hold her temper. The entire time I was with her I never even raised a finger at her. I couldn't bring myself to leave her because I loved her so much, still, after having been in long relationships before and since, I have never loved anyone so much as her, despite what she did to me daily. I eventually managed to say enough was enough though and sent our dog over to Cyprus and soon followed. I would not have been able to get out of that if I hadn't moved country, I needed to escape completely. This experience has made me so paranoid that I find trust very difficult now. Happily single for now. I went 'cold turkey' off the citalopram just before I moved out here. I also took a lot of recreational drugs from a young age, mainly pills and cannabis, almost every day. I managed to give that all up, even ciggarettes, for just over 7 months. I was very proud of this. Until I ruined it all again last summer. Recently have begun to feel down again often, and having problems with confidence, my self appearance and sleep amongst other things. I find it impossible talking to my family (who I do not get on with in the slightest), and extremely difficult talking to my friends about any of it, so basicly never talk about it at all! I am now recently starting back up on citalopram again. I HAVE REMOVED A NUMBER OF FRIENDS RECENTLY, EITHER BECAUSE WE HAVEN'T TALKED FOR A WHILE OR I AM UNCOMFORTABLE TALKING WITH YOU. ALSO A FEW THAT HAVE JUST IGNORED ME ENTIRELY. RATHER NOT WASTE MY TIME WITH THEM.

Name's Andy, I used to live in England, but I have lived out in Cyprus for the last 4 years which I have really enjoyed. I have struggled with depression since the age of about 14 for various reasons. Ended up dropping out of school before GCSE's, and found it hard to keep a job. I went to a large number of different 'shrinks' but none of which seemed to help. I was really, really low, I attempted suicide, regularly self harmed, and was on citalopram for about 4/5 years. I left home when I was 17,

Website

annual_gecko@hotmail.com

Interests

I love sport, rugby and cricket mainly. I play Inside Centre for Akrotiri rugby team, and captain West Sovereign Base Area cricket team. Also just got my first international cap for Cyprus too :) Before I moved to Cyprus I used to play County Cricket for Sussex. I am highly competative, and sports help me take my mind off things a lot. I am into my cars and enjoy drag racing, going to the beach, fishing, going out clubbing, house and dance music, love dancing, only after a few though, not that good either :) Lots of things... Also love nature and animals. I own two dogs, a tiny 5 year old jack russell/yorkshire terrior, Chocolate, and a collie cross puppy called Pudding! Also have a cat called Barney. All 3 are in my pictures. Tropical fish & koi carp also, but they don't do much... I have been playing poker professionally for the last 2 years. I have 3 tattoos and 3 piercings.

I love sport, rugby and cricket mainly. I play Inside Centre for Akrotiri rugby team, and captain West