well this is my first entry on …
well this is my first entry on here so I better make it a good one huh? LOL Well today was actually an ok day but I am …
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Rmurphy 
hey guys today has been somewhat good and somewhat bad.
I have gained about 12 lbs and I am not happy at all with it. I wish I could cud my fat off or get it sucked out of my tummy.LOL dont we all??
Well today I havee done really good on eating and I have come up with a plan to lose weight by christmas. I am disgusting right now and I need to lose 14 lbs by christmas and then I will only be 12 lbs away from my goal weight :).
Well anyway I have been eating low cal foods and drinking tea and water and my mom comes home and the decide to fucking make porkchops and macaroni and cheese. I was going to just eat a pork chop to make them happy but my mom got a phone call from a friend of the family and I overheard her talking about my most recent suicide attempt. It really upset me because I dont want everyone and their mom to know all this stuff about me.
I mean the people that I want to know I will tell ya know?
Well anyway after that I was just like Im not eating and my parents got so upset. Although they dont realize I used that as an excuse to not eat. Because I have a goal and I hate being and feeling the way I am right now.
I sound pretty messed up right?
Well docs dont think I have a secere prblem cuz I am borderline "good" weight!
But whatever anyway just wanted to vent a little!!
I have gained about 12 lbs and I am not happy at all with it. I wish I could cud my fat off or get it sucked out of my tummy.LOL dont we all??
Well today I havee done really good on eating and I have come up with a plan to lose weight by christmas. I am disgusting right now and I need to lose 14 lbs by christmas and then I will only be 12 lbs away from my goal weight :).
Well anyway I have been eating low cal foods and drinking tea and water and my mom comes home and the decide to fucking make porkchops and macaroni and cheese. I was going to just eat a pork chop to make them happy but my mom got a phone call from a friend of the family and I overheard her talking about my most recent suicide attempt. It really upset me because I dont want everyone and their mom to know all this stuff about me.
I mean the people that I want to know I will tell ya know?
Well anyway after that I was just like Im not eating and my parents got so upset. Although they dont realize I used that as an excuse to not eat. Because I have a goal and I hate being and feeling the way I am right now.
I sound pretty messed up right?
Well docs dont think I have a secere prblem cuz I am borderline "good" weight!
But whatever anyway just wanted to vent a little!!
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