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caretakerofthefallen 
4:50pm Monday
grrrrrrrrrrrrraaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!
im so fucking pissed im gonna try venting through poem cuz if i dont im probly gonna go bezerk so here it goes
unnamed poem
By andrew z.
death blinds me
razors caress me
anger defens me
anxiety calls to me
agony takes over
torment overwelms
i give myself to my anger my hate
wings surround me as i howl
tears shead down my cheek
blood follows as screams
enter my mind
i love
i hate
i scream i hate everything around me
such anger surrounds me
such pain eats away my bleeding heart
it turns a deathly gray
such pain takes over i cry and cry
till the tears are crimson as i bleed out
i feel myself slowly die
let the crimson wolf die
let the gargoil die
may the stones fall upon me
kill me torment me
take me over
let me feel nothing y care
y bother such pain hurts and harms
me
i wrap my wings around me i hear the screaming of those needing me
i fly to them i care for them uncaring if i am bleeding crying
tormented inside i hide it all showing an angel of perfect health i cry and heal them just to lose
my wings
my love my caring it all falls apart in the end
im just a bloodied corpse dead and buried as others laugh
and cry live and and die
inside i just grow numb hating myself wanting to die wanting to give up and change to dust i give it up to them my life to theirs..my soul to theirs...
my death to myself.
-end 10/2/09
Comments
well ive screwed up once again ive called my mom a bitch while talking to a friend on accdent and got my fone taken away now i have to be realy carefull cuz now i wont have anyone to talk to i lost all the numbers and i gotta try not doing suicide or hurting her im probly more likely try to hurt myself zack idk if ur reading this or not but try to give me ur number through messages so i can call u when i can im realy sorry :((
idk anymore im at my wits end my soul is always screaming in rage and sorrow atm y bother caring or wanting to keep strong idk sighs it fucking hurts like hell! idk just saying im alive i guess caretaker out
Past Entries
Goal Updated
*shakes head* i want to say so much to you, but its not going to be anything you havent already heard from me. so i will let you know i read this journal and the ones prior and i have no comment, just a head shake.
kathyhope