Intersessa's Journal

I am feeling so much better already.  I think a lot of it has to do with it being Spring Break.  I always try  to make changes over breaks or Holidays, as its a good time to reflect, and take time to rest and focus on the things I need to change within and for myself. 
I've been getting up in the morning to go in to work at a place called Cowichan Social Planning - I realy like it.  It's nice becuase I don't have to stay too long and its not extremely strenuouse of a job.  My mom's office is very close and we go for lunch together - this helps a lot.
Also, I made an effort to actually sit down with my mom last night and have dinner with her - it was really nice, and important to me, and I think important to her to see that I am trying so she will stop worrying so much.
I just feel better in general.  My body feels better and so does my mind.  It's a matter of having things to do through out the day to occupy yourself - no matter how hard it might be to get motivated, if you force yourself to pretend you are ready, evidently your mind kicks in and says - "ok im doing this now" and then  you become ready in a genuine sense.
I'm still waiting to find out about how much money I will be getting back for my car - which was a write-off.  I hope it is a decent amount as we have already begun the search for a new vehicle.
I'm hosting a party tonight, with lots of poeple in an average sized house.....although it is only one floor.  I am a little worried about the police showing up or things getting out of control - so if anyone happens to read this today...please pray for my protection and the protection of the house and the people inside of it.  I want things to go over well without too much chaos to have to deal with. 
Also, I realy want to get re-focused on school again, and approach it from a new perspective, because I've gotten a little destracted....but I do know that my ED was a huge part of why a lot of my studies didnt get done, or were merely touch and go effort - my ED was consuming my every spare moment - moments that I need dearly.  So I am hoping to make a huge dent in my school work perhaphs tomorrow...which would include me staying home alone to do so.....and that is when I am at my weakest, when I am home alone....so also pray that I can handle being a lone to work on my school work and actually get A LOT done, because I need the time and that day to do it and I dont want my ED to get in the way.

Happy St. Patricks Day!!
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