brent72's Journal

     I am soooooo conflicted right now. Things on my part time job are not going to good. They just keep putting on the pressure to shorten up the time you spend trying to help the client. They keep tell you to do this do that don't forget to say this just this way, ect. Then they turn around and tell you that you are taking to much time. I don't think I have ever heard them say anything about customer service. I guess that is the way it is now a days. The "powers that be" keep looking at statistics and making all their decisions based soley on the statistics alone. I have had several clients thank me for taking the time to resolve their issues but I guess the company really doesn't care about that. I am seriously considering resigning and hoping that they will offer me another "line" to work and that it will be better. I don't know what to do. If I keep working I am afraid that I will get another "mark" on my record and then they will use that to tell me they are not going to offer me another line. I get so frustrated with their system and the lack of help. Instead of keeping it locked up inside I talk to Debbie but I think it stresses her out even more. I think she worries about me not bringing in any money again. It is not much but it does help give us a little breathing room. If I do resign they still might not offer me another line or it might be several weeks or longer with not pay. Then Debbie will get stressed about that. aaaarrrrrgggggg  Either way I choose it seems it will cause her more stress...........sometimes I just wish I would contract something that would call me home. Then she could collect the insurance money and pay off the house and have much less stress. I wouldn't be here stressing her and she wouldn't have all the bills we have now.  Got to go under natural causes though or the Insurance will refuse to pay and then she will be worse off. I just don't know what to do............I keep thinking I should just be able to let all this crap slide off my back. Do my job and don't worry about everything that I worry about. No one else seem to.....But then I think that is not the way I was taught. I was taught that being consciencious was a good thing. If something is wrong fix it don't just ignore it. Is this wrong now? I guess I need to stay in the house and not deal with anyone at all. Maybe I can survive the time I have left then.