cewidder's Journal

Guys im frustrated. Something is not right. I'm in pain again and I took all of my meds. My overnight staff got me up. I could not sleep. I almost called for Matt again not realizing he wasn't in the apartment. It was just me and my staff. I called the cp program to see if i could see my doctor any time soon. sooner than august 13th. I just got mad at a comment in the Cp group that one of my freinds made. waiting on my Case Manager to come. I put my mom on stand by because im hurting. I cant figure it out. im gonna switch chairs. im in the manual now. im gonna switch to power and see if it helps. my night staff cannot put me in it very well so i decided to wait until my day shift staff comes to put me in it. but you guys i dont understand why im hurting so bad. its hurting my legs and my back. I just dont understand. My account got screwed up yesterday day,both of them. I dont know what's going on with me and its starting to scare me you guys. im gonna go to my profile and change my pic real quick and then im outta here. I think i know how to do it.

p.s. i dont know whats up with Matt and I. I think Brooke and I are going to go through my appointments, go to the store, and paint. maybe that'll help my pain. I have some darvset but im scared to take it. I never have. And i also have 5 mg valium too, as well as the 2mg. I havent taken the 5mg yet.

ps.s. my moms name is on my account. she is upset at me. and i tryed to fix it yesterday. and she is is getting that info. my pain is worse. talk to you guys later. bye for now