Journal

 I'm concerned about Tiger getting hurt on the chair and i am concerned about matt because he loves him, we both don't want anything to happen to him. i wen't to get my meds today, fourteen bucks for all my meds. I wen't to Burger king and spent $2.65 on a whopper and Onion ring's with a Coke. My X-ray's came out fine. i found out I have to take another medicine because my vitamin D level is low, so here we go with another medicine. The DR, said that the X-ray's are hard to read. My Grandmother has been hurting more and more everyday. One of my staff can't use one of her hand's. we'll see about Tiger. i was also sitting on my sling so therefore it made my hip hurt. nothin new when I see people.Yesterday was Matt and i anniversary our month to month one. We hadn't argued at all, yesterday was aces birthday too he was 6 mont hs old. Well i only have ten bucks right now for five day's, but that's ok I can make it through. c+m m+c t+a our family i love Matt with all my heart and I live tiger i hope there both ok. matt's concerned and I am too. my Gorin muscla has been bothering. oh yeah my grandmothe is going into an assisted living facility.

I finally go someone stable to help me with my bills every month. The department manager"Denise" is going to help me with my bills every month.  Some of them I did not have to pay. THE INSURANCE PAID THEM i SPENT MOST OF THE DAY DOING THIS WITH HER. Getting a spread sheet. I just ate lunch at 4pm so it took all day. My morning staff did my slings in laundry. I staid with Matt lastnit And I got good TLC he's always good at that. I wish I didnt have to do the schedule. I think I want to let my lead staff know that we still have a week and a month to do the schedule and if it comes down to it I can have my morning staff help me out with it. So i'll be up here at my other home at 10 or 11 tonight. My chiropractor is commong aroung 6:30 today. My body is like tripping out on me. My case manager did'nt really have time to go through all of what my department manager did for me. I'm thankful for that and once we get the spread sheet i'll send out a couple of copies to him. I wish I had more money for next month but bills are gonna get paid and I know I can do this. It's becomming more and more positive. now our case manager and just have to set up the meeting for me asap. Like I said yesterday when it didnt show in the entry, Matt is my heart and my DX man I'm his DX woman and her fiance. He's my rock and my everything, whenthings get tough we have eachother. I can come up here and relax when I need to. Ace< Colleen< tiger< and Matt out! ps I still have a week on the schedule so i am definitely comming up at 10 or 11. end of ps.

Today is a good day. i just slept a little weird. Matt came down for a while and hung out. I feel like we are getting closer and closer everyday. He is the only one I can really talk to. He wants to help me pay my bills but we both know our case manager woudlnt like that. Tomorrow our case manager is going to come see me and set up a budget and talk to me about staffing and setting up a PCP. Im not sure about one of my staff rt now. I got replacements if she quits because she has been going overboard on me. Wanting to get paid and I understand that but idk. Im just thankful for Matt because he loves me so much. Im on his computer. He is thinking about moving back in to my place. It's nice to come up here when I need a break from staffing and just chill out but I would love him to move back in. Things wouldnt be the same as they were when we tryd it before. I have changed as a person I wouldnt yell for him as much unless I really needed it or if he wanted to hlep me. i think tonight I will be at home at 2:11 instead of 1:10 to get outta there for a while. anyway thats it. again i apologize to my groups. I dont feel like going through all the topics and giving advice because I'm struggling myself and I want to keep that between Matt and I.