TesR's Journal

Still off work.  Some very sore chest  moments.  Followed a recommendation from "Healing with Whole Foods" by Paul Pitchford:  roasted walnuts morning and evening and each time they eased the soreness.

I've increased ventolin use and kept same doses of corticosteroid and long acting bronchodilator.  Sitting it out.

Also did some psychological work with EFT twice.  Healing is a messy and lengthy and painful business.  Saying that both times I reached a point of rest in the procedure that enabled a few slow deep breaths.

I worked on the link between the Chinese medicine system, (Paul Pitchford again) lungs and grief, the current pain and soreness, my current anger and anxieties about the physical frailties and dysfuntional state, the lung link with deeply embodied and stuck family grief and anxieties projected unconsciously into the absorbant vulnerable infant, born at a time of grief and reactivated grief. The anxieties now for me and then for them (recently bereaved parents), will I live or will I die? EFT working with the body meridians and acupressure coupled with the affirmation of deeply and competely accepting myself.