Soleil's Journal

            By:  Soleil

I couldn’t bear to look at her

A painful past had she

She forced me to remember

All the things they did to me

I put the blame on her you see

I looked at her with shame

I wished for things that couldn’t be

I needed her to blame

I saw her as small and weak

No spine had she at all

Why didn’t she come forth and speak

And let them know it all?

Why did she endure the pain?

She lived with all the anger

What did silence have to gain?

She put our childhood in danger

I looked at her to be

As the adult I am today

And not the child who once was me

Who brought me to this day

She did the best she could back then

With what she had at hand

And now I must remember when

The child alone did stand

She survived it all and still she grew

She lived through the despair

With courage and determination too

Our life we will repair

She got me to where I am today

Without her I would have perished

And never ever found my way

I have my inner child to cherish