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ladybug246978 
11:43am, November 18, 2009
Today was a horrible day. My big brother told me that he didn't want me in his life because I don't agree with the way he is living it. He cussed me so bad today that he actually broke through my strong shield of ignoring it and I cut myself just to feel something other than the hurt and stress of it all. Normally I usually go to pain. I am no proud of the cutting and in fact I hadn't done it for over a year until today. I have my MRI to worry about I am having headaches all the time again, and now my ass of a brother is pulling his crap like he always does. I just can't handle what life is throwing at me anymore. I simply wish I would die and get it over with.
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I think what has happened is you have just been hit with so much at once.....The headaches, wondering and worrying about the MRI and then your brother lashing out at you b/c U said something that angered him! It s just a lot at once for anyone, but U can see that U have gone so long w/o harming yourself before, that U know U can do it again! Just take some breaths and relax and regroup and pray!! Trust in God to lessen the headaches once more and help you get back on and stay on the right track again.....U can do it
ShannonDP