Laura20's Journal

What a weird palce to be. I was sent home for work for falling asleep. basically they were very good. They said came from a place of caring. Still I felt sooo ashamed. Like I did something wrong. Even though I had gotten 8 hrs sleep night before & was recovering from bilateral pyleo & knew I was not up to par. I got worked up @ my request for a sleep study & was dx with sleep apnea w/ desats & hypoapnea. Surprise thought this only happened to overweight & older people. I guess allergies & asthma contibuted to it. Now I am dealing with the fact that my body can't even breathe right without help. I am reminded of it every time I have to use CPAP to go to sleep. I used this time to stop ignoring my back issues. Instead of throwing meds @ it when I could'nt stand it  & being in agony ever time I worked. I luckily found A Dr who after multiple requests by me ordered a x-ray which led to a MRI & found a bunch of stuff. Now I am stuck home for @ few weeks again & have to address my own physical issues. I don't know what to do with myself. I have always worked out & done housework now it hurts to do too much of that so I have too much time to think. I have always taken care of other people & worked. Its forcing me to evaluate everything about my life. I never realized how much of who I am is based on my job & being a good mother & wife.