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Laura20 
1:24pm, October 25, 2009
I am getting my life back. I have been given a 2nd chance & I am not going to blow it. I have been taking care of everyone else & stressing about what if this happens. I have learned a hard but good lesson. I have to take care of myself. It feels so good. I have hope again & feel so much stronger. I really do have a good life & I will have bad times but I will survive esp if I take care of myself otherwise my body breaks down & I spiral into depression & suicidal thoughts
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I want to help you!!! Where do you live...what can I do? I am here for you...I hope you know that. I know you dont know me...but please trust me when I say I am here for you!!!
lostNlife911
I live in calif.I am feeling somewhat better. My biggest proble. is I am under a lot of stress & dont deal with it well.Then I get sick & it seems to take forever to get well. Any advice would be appreciated
Laura20
ok hun...this is what i have that might help you out. As I said before, my mother took her own life and I wentthrough her struggling just like you are all of my life. She had attempted this alot in my life, but I was always there to save her...this time I wasnt. She left me and my little brother a letter saying she was sorry for being so weak and scared of life and being alone. That is what you cant be. You cant be weak. You need to find the one thing that makes you happy. Even if its something goofy that makes you smile and stick with it. Find the one thing you are good at a do it all the time. Anything that makes you at least grin. I understand you are under alot of stress right now...believe me I know how that feels. the one thing I found that helps also is writing. Not just on here, but in my own personal journal. Every night before I go to sleep , I lay in bed and write all about that day. How I was feeling, what happen that day...and then at the end of your entry for the day...Pray. Every night I pray that the next day will be better for me and everyone. Pray that you will have the strenght to make yourself happy. That is very important. Make "YOURSELF" happy. I am also working on that , and it is hard. For me I was always trying to make everyone else happy. I can't do that anymore...I have to make myself happy. Also take your medication like you are suppose to. Then if that isnt working go back to the doctor and tell him/her it is not what you need...try something new. Find what does work for you. Everyone is different...the same thing doesnt work for everyone. Also for me...talking to you and trying to help you is good for me. I feel better about myself when I am trying to help someone else. I do not have all of the answers, I am not professional anything...I just give the advice that I have learned myself. Again...my solution might not be right for you or anyone else...But it is worth a shot. Again find the one thing that makes you happy and go with it. Let me know how you are feeling about this and if it might be a little help to you. Please keep your chin up sweets...there are people that care. ;)
lostNlife911
Laura, I want to know how you're doing..I got your hug today and upon reading your journal entry my heart grew heavy thinking about how all the stress is affecting you..I know I can help you get through this because I went through this kind of stuff too! Sweetie, when is a good time for us to talk? I'm always on in the mornings so that's the best time for me..prayer got me through somehow someway..I believe there are angels sent from heaven to take care of us through these kinds of troubles in life so know that I am praying and asking for help from above for you this day!!!
lilmskeys
DBT (dialetical behavior therapy) can help you learn to deal with the stress and suicidal feelings. Look into it.
mianutzy
When we are young most of us a taught not to be selfish..this often later in life this leads us ot be slef sacrificing putting everones needs first their needs are ore important than ours...WRONG our needs are the most important as if we do not help ourseves we are unable to help others. God says Love your neightbour as you would love yourself that is right love yourself you are as inportant as any other person onthis planet Take care of yourself first then you may be able to help othrs
chattygal
Baby Girl, i mean what i say , if you need me for anything, talk to me, Ive been where you are, and its horrible, dont ever think your alone, because your not, I agree with lostNlife911, i too write at night before i prey, its turned into a nightly thing , no matter what, it makes me feel so much better, and you can track your behavior, our body's change along with the female chemicals, and hormone balance, if any of this is just a little bit, off, it can make us stress out easy and have them bad thoughts, Its something, i track with my writings, i found with me writing when the worse times were for me, Its about a week before my monthly, and a day or so when i finish, I go nuts, have panic attacks, pain gets worse, moody bitch is wwhat i am, i can get evil, its not a good thing, thats for sure, so use the power of pray, its free and it works, i am working on trying to feel god in me, and back into my life, at times im not at peace, and i question the things that i go thru and do, so if you need me in any way, im here, hol
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