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LeftWing 
6:28pm Saturday
I've lost 10 pounds over the last month by doing the following:
->over-reacting and seething when MB yells at me (anger, worry and tension speeds up your metabolism)
->being pissed off about lack of progress at work (see note about anger)
->walking off in frustration at times (we all know how GREAT walking is)
-> enjoying walking w/ my daughter as she learns to bike on the trail; need to work w/ my oldest son on that
It's a good thing I'm not happy or I might have gained weight when I stopped biking (the days are too short and have little time or patience for it now that it's cold)
Now that MB & I have stopped fighting due to the onset of her crisis, the hope is that the worry and sullen lack of eating will keep up the weight loss that currently is making me feel so "happy".
With her cancer, and the cease-fire from fighting, I'm also improving my goal of "live in peace w/ Partner up to 25%
oh by the way, the "BUT WHEN" part of the Title in this Journal entry was "but when will I stop feeling bitter".
On 2nd thought, maybe bitterness will make me lose weight and kill the pain of worry and sadness. Better keep it up.
UPDATED GOALS
live in peace w/Partner
Progress 25%
Encouragements: 1
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I think it will help in the fight against the bitterness to remember that bitterness only eats at ourselves from the inside..it effects no one else. Bitterness is an emotion that eats us from the inside out.
Remeber what we talked about in chat yesterday???? When you start doing that, you will find yourself slowing giving up all the bitterness.
kidsintowe03
you're right, and part of this was in humor & jest. But with a convoluted humor, my humor probably isn't very funny or very understandable.
LeftWing
I understand about bitterness & DS helped me not be bitter. Hugs
jazzergirl
Bitterness will, over the long term, hurt your life instead of help it. Talking about the stress and being close to someone who genuinely cares for you in your situation is better- but walking is not a bad way to handle any tension. I will be thinking of you and send you hugs.
Nytwolf
I think walking is a good thing to relieve stress and tension, you need to get it out, release it so that it doesn't leak into other parts of your life, or at other loved ones in your life.
I understand the bitterness, but it is not healthy and will eat you up inside. Find a way to let go of that bitterness. Find a way to work through it so that it does not affect your relationships with other people. I am working on the very same thing, so let me tell you, it is doable!
Hugs and prayers.
BeckyK
Great post V, I hear you. If what you say is true, I can definitely lose some weight with what you said above. I am angry, walk off mad often, etc. Losing weight is so important, as I can testify that when we get older and gain, all the health issues begin, like high BP, diabetes, etc. All due to obesity. I really have to move my body more. Being retired, all I do is lie around, watch TV, and smoke. No wonder I'm sick. Hope you stick it out with MB, if it's what you really want. Love Tinder
tinderhart