I am a fuck up.
April 16, 2009 8:36pm
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hopeforhealing79 
8:55pm, April 16, 2009
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About Me
hopeforhealing79
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About Me
I've been dealing with depression and anxiety for most of my life. I'm a college student and aspiring writer. I love to read. I'm also a huge fan of music and can often be found checking out local bands at coffee shops.
I've been dealing with depression and anxiety for most of my life. I'm a college student and aspiring writer. I love to read. I'm also a huge fan of music and can often be found checking out local bands at coffee shops.
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I have returned.
April 8, 2009 4:08pm
I'm actually too tired to write an actual update at the moment, but will later. I have returned to this site though and plan on making it a more …
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I'm Growing
July 25, 2008 11:54am
This week has been really good. I had a really good session with my therapist on Monday, and set my goals for therapy. But mainly, …
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A Prayer
July 20, 2008 6:49pm
Father,
Today I give you everything. I am powerless without you, Lord. I am lost without you, Lord. I can do nothing outside of …
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Relapse
July 17, 2008 6:34pm
So I had an SI relapse earlier this week after 12 years self-harm free. I had gone to my first appointment with my new counselor earlier that …
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Aww, thanks. I appreciate it. I hope you feel better too *giant bear hugs from somewhat short person*
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Wanted to let you know taking back my life will be shutting but you can join our new group here http://dailystrength.org/groups/su...
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Thank you for the comment! You are right... I do deserve the life I want.. I have become aware of that in the recent past... I have been dealing with some legal issues that have sorta taken control of my life... Along with that and the unhappiness, I have sort of fallen into this depression... It takes a lot to get me in a state of depression, so when I do fall into one, it take A LOT to get me out... If you go back and read maybe my past four or five journals, i thik they tell my whole story so far.... Thanks again!!! BIG HUGS!!! ~J~
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Hello there! Welcome to DS if you ever need someone to talk too i am hear to listen.
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Close Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) DepressionI've dealt with depression as long as I can remember. Treatment has been difficult, but I'm not giving up.
Treatments
- Lexapro Considering
- Meditation Working / Worked
- Sometimes prayer is a big help. It helps me clear my head, and kind of reset myself.
- Positive Thinking Somewhat Helpful
- Affirmations can help, but only if the episode hasn't been that deep.
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- Therapy can be a big help, but sometimes I have a hard time opening up with my therapist.
- Support from Friends & Family Working / Worked
- I don't get much support from my family at all, but my friends are amazing and they pretty much keep me going.
- Wellbutrin Not Working
- Tried this for a while. Depression actually got worse and I suffered from some kinda scary side effects.
- Writing Working / Worked
- Journaling can often help me pinpoint exactly what I'm feeling.
- Zoloft Somewhat Helpful
- Worked for a while but seems to not be working as much.
Close Anxiety
Along with depression, I've also dealt with an anxiety disorder for as long as I can remember. They have been treated together.
Treatments
- Lexapro Considering
- Positive Thinking Somewhat Helpful
- Zoloft Somewhat Helpful
- Worked for a while, but effects faded.
Open Panic Attacks
Only recently starting having occasional panic attacks, usually brought on in crowded places. Luckily, they are few and far between for the most part.
Treatments
- Emotions Anonymous (EA) Considering
Open Physical & Emotional Abuse
Suffered a lot of abuse as a child, mostly emotional though some was physical. Continue to feel the effects of emotional abuse today.
Treatments
- Music Somewhat Helpful
- Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful
- Talking Working / Worked
Open Self-Injury
I'm happy to say that I haven't self-injured in 12 years, but it's something that I struggle with everyday.
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful
- Rubber Bands Not Working
- I don't see this as adequate therapy. I would pop it harder and harder until it left welts. It's only another form of self-injury.
- Talking Working / Worked
- Tattoos Working / Worked
- I love tattoos but I only allow myself to get one when I'm in a safe headspace and not feeling the urge to injure.
Open Sexual Abuse
I know I was sexually abused as a child though I can't remember most of it. As a teenager, I was abused by someone I still have to see. Because of this, healing has been difficult.
Treatments
- Emotions Anonymous (EA) Considering
- Leave Considering
- Talking Working / Worked
Open Families & Friends Of Addicts
I'm a child of addiction and also have a few friends who are recovering addicts.
Treatments
Open Sex / Pornography Addiction
I've struggled with a pornography addiction since I was around 8 years old.
Open Obesity
I've been morbidly obese for most of my life. In May 2007, I had weight loss surgery. I'm now trying to learn how to live a healthier life without the comfort of food.
Treatments
- Avoid Certain Foods / Chemicals Not Working
- In moments of stress, i'll always go back to the foods i'm trying to avoid.
- Gastric Bypass Surgery Working / Worked
- Jenny Craig Not Working
- NutriSystem Not Working
- Overeaters Anonymous (OA) Too Soon to Tell
- Kind of hard b/c there isn't a well established meeting in my area. Considering the online meetings.
- Physical Exercise Working / Worked
- Slim-Fast Not Working
- Weight Watchers Working / Worked
Open College Stress
I'm a 28 year old college student that has had lots of problems passing classes due to my depression and anxiety.
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful
- Sleep Somewhat Helpful
- Support from Friends & Family Working / Worked
Open Financial Challenges
I sometimes have a hard time keeping a job because of my anxiety disorder. Right now my parents are paying my bills while I'm in school but I'm looking for a job.
Treatments
- Budgeting Working / Worked
- Earn Money Working / Worked
- Holding a Garage Sale Considering
Open Healthy Eating
I had weight loss surgery in May 2007 and am on a continuous quest towards healthier eating and living.
Treatments
- Organic Diet Considering
Open Family Issues
I am a child of divorce and addict parents. Even as an adult I continue to be affected by my dysfunctional family.
Treatments
- Emotions Anonymous (EA) Considering
- Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
- Writing Somewhat Helpful
Open Migraine Headaches
I've been having chronic migraines for the last 2 weeks. I'm not really sure why.
Treatments
- Excedrin Somewhat Helpful
Open Personality Disorders
Type: Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD)Just diagnosed today with Borderline Personality Disorder.
Treatments
- Emotions Anonymous (EA) Too Soon to Tell
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
