purged
July 15, 2008 11:53am
Well today I woke up and hadn't lost any weight since yesterday. I was disapointed because I really do want to lose weight (not via ed, but …
nicolek5574
10:32pm, July 14, 2008
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About Me
nicolek5574
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About Me
I am a stay at home mom for now, but when my daughter goes to school I will go back to work as a teacher. I am an elementary school teacher, but I have only ever taught middle school and high school (math and english). I don't know what to say about my ED(s) because I don't know what is wrong with me! Basically I B/P, and I restrict. I also over eat, so right now I am over weight. I feel good when I am hungry and in control when I restrict. I am not where near recovery. I don't even know what that would feel like. I can not ever remember eating normally. Right from when I was young I would diet, or try to eat exactly what my little bro ate cause he was super skinny lol. I remember being in grade 1 and hating gym class because we had to change in front of our friends. I remember not letting my mom buy me a jean skirt because I hated my legs. I was 6. I won't let my daughter grow up like that!
I am a stay at home mom for now, but when my daughter goes to school I will go back to work as a teacher. I am an elementary school teacher, but I have only ever taught middle school and high school (math and english). I don't know what to say about my ED(s) because I don't know what is wrong with me! Basically I B/P, and I restrict. I also over eat, so right now I am over weight. I feel good when I am hungry and in control when I restrict. I am not where near recovery. I don't even know what that
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I love playing soccer, running and working out. I like singing and dancing but mostly when no one is looking or listening! My main interest in my wonderful daughter...she is almost 2 and my hard working husband...he is also a school teacher!
I love playing soccer, running and working out. I like singing and dancing but mostly when no one is
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gross
July 14, 2008 10:40pm
I just ate 2 rice cakes, a slice of cheese and a pickle. I wish I didn't. I could have easily just not eaten it. I ate …
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What will today bring...
July 14, 2008 10:59am
I woke up 1 pound lighter than yesterday and I feel dissapointed. Then i feel mad that I feel disapointed. how am I supposed to …
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odds and ends
July 13, 2008 11:02pm
Sometimes I wake up in the morning feeling totally normal. On these mornings I wake up thinking "oh my gosh it's …
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get it out of me
July 12, 2008 11:02pm
I hate how I feel right now. I just ate a bagal. 300 calories. it wasn't even good but I ate it because I said today I …
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Nicole having a child and an ed is hard i struggle withthe same thing with my 3 1/2 yr old i even gave up breast feeding whrn she was 6 months so i could use lax is hard want to talk next time i am on drop a line
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i love ur happy bucket :) and yeah ill get over it, so how are you??
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My daughter and son, yes majority my daughter. Of course the hubby..But this time around, I am finally doing it for myself, so I can be a motivation for them.. I am glad you were touched.. You have time to not have an impact on her.. You should be proud of yourself for already thinking of her... Thinking of her future. We often do not think that they understand. But like you said, she notices breakfast.. WTG.. Here for you, not to judge ever.. Collette
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Thanks for the freind request. Not sure how I am a inspiration, but I want to help anyway I can.. You are an inspiration, just for reaching out, and knowing you want to get better, and that there is a life out there, without ED... LoVe aNd PeACe..
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I feel the same way. We both need to find something more satisfying than weight loss and food-I am still searching for answers-but I at leat try to eat veggies and sushi 1-2 times per week.
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