happychi's Journal

hi, I am having brain fade... it is effecting short term memory, and what is left and right.. and i can not remember what ealse at the moment..lol.

physical therapy has helped about 75%.. but wooo we the 25% pain is still hard to take day after day.. but i have been able to start painting. I am taking a class on Chinese detail flower painting; it is hard but fun. I love being with the other students; the class is a great group. We have all levels of abilites from experts to very beginners.. i am kinda in the middle.

I will post soon some of the art from the class. I will let you know when i post.

It was warm enough that i sat outside for a little while with a fire in the out door chimney.

I am so tired of begging for rides to go to dr. visits. It is one thing if i run out of yarn. verses needing to go to the dr. I mean i can do with out other stuff... if i run out of yarn.. i can find something ealse to do... but when you are sick and need to go to the dr.. well that is so stressfull not being able to get there.

Being able to paint is helping my attitude and i am feeling moments of being happier.

I had a brain change at the beginning of summer that has dragged out to the end of summer and then I had another one at the end of summer. Seeing, memory, tired... weakness, not energy or strength.... It all digressed and the penched nerve in my back only makes things worse.... blaw blaw bla.. there i go again talking about the pain.. but it is the most dominate thing in my life!

After sitting by the fire I had to come in and take a shower and change cloths. I put everything in the hamper except the jacket i was wearing. It iis just a little smokey.. and i like the smell... it reminds me of having been outside this afternoon.

I have three more sessions of physical therapy. I need a miracle at the end of next week when therapy will be over. I want to be well so bad.. but i am not sure three more times in traction is going to be enough.. I think I will need more therapy. I will have to go to the dr and see what he will do/ superscription ... i hope more physical therapy. my hips are 75% straighter but I need want the other 25%!!!!

I have prayed for two things right now that I really really really want... my hips/back to be well 100% and I want to move to live in the same neiborhood as a good friend. We want to live in the same neiborhood. I really really want these. I am praying earnestly.

love and hugs.