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sweetlies 
5:17pm, September 20, 2008
Craving want go away Ive tried and tried and just want go away. Im so screwed!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Just one hit is all i want. Tierd of not being able to not do a damn thing. Just set on my azz and wish wish wish. What the hell is wrong with me. Hell i cant even clean my house. Im nothing but a toldel BITCH. Husband cant stand me and hell i cant stand my self. Made a phone call but no answer. What the hell. I so feed up with this chit.
I went from using meth to using oxys and aderal. Oxys for the pain and aderal for the energy. It's a great feeling. Now I'm trying to get off them. It's about to kill me. For a week now ive done nothing but hurt and pray to god to give me energy or let me die. I broke down last night and got a aderal My god it felt like i could live for every. The feeling was awsom and the energy was back. Now im down and her I GO AGAIN. Even thought of getting sum meth. I hate not having any energy and FEELING PAIN! When it comes to pain im the biggest baby. I cant take it. My husband doesnt understand he just tells me im lazy and bitches bc i need the drugs. Hes got his pot so how can he say that to me. He tells me to just get up make myself do it . I cant ive tried. I walk around in circles and the pain is everywhere in my body. Sum pain is real but the other is withdrawls. I think. When will the pain go away and the energy come back. The main reason i started on drugs was the energy and the way it makes you feel so gd. I been doing meth for 5yrs and been off it for 2mos. but the pills i been doing for 15yrs. and never stopped just found better ones. Can anyone help me PLEASE?
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I'm losing my mind. I am a recovering addict who has been taking anti depressiant pills. Was on them for a mo ran out and I just now got back on them. I am taking effexor.
the thing is when I started taking them my husband claims I went crazy and started yelling and screaming and threthened to kill my self. Them it passed and i started feeling better. Now , i was off them for 2 wks and just got back on them and everything is coming apart at the seem again. I'm having suacidal thoughts and going crazy . My husband claims it's them meds bc I never have thoughts of killing or hurting my self. Just all of a sudden. I know I want do it but its scaring the hell out of me. I know I need this medicine but the thoughts and the anger, just want go away. Does anyone else have these probs with this medication and will it pass. I'v tried contacting my preacher but hes unavailable at the time. This place is the only thing I have to turn to.Please responed.
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Sweetlies, okay here is the scoop I know I am taking Cymbalta 60mg a day, sometimes 120mg depending on my depressive state, I went for three days without them and almost killed my wife , two dogs and my daughter, I am not joking! I flipped out, like a crazy insane barbituate man who went off the coastal end of the world. Anti-d's can be a scary thing, maintaining a constant dose is a must, and may I recommend Trazadone, in addition to what you are taking this helps calm things down, also we need to keep in mind here that anti-d's along with pain meds can be an ugly combination so make sure you are constantly in a secure safe enviroment. We are here to help you.
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let me get home to my pc and I will try to help ypou I am on ny handheld now so writing a long helpful story would take me forever I will talk to you soon
customs572
ill be here
sweetlies
Okay, The withdrawls usually last about five days, I have seen them go on for ten but that is rare. I don't know how close you are to day five but hang in there even if you are on day two or three and usually those are the worst! It really comes down to mind over matter, but you have to be very strong in doing it this way, if you cannot handle the withdrawls try going to sleep. Here is what I did when I was out of my oxycontin and dilaudid.......Day one was not too bad I drank alot of water and I mean alot I slept for half the day then I started porpping 1200 mg of advil and 1000mg of tylenol, it was just enough to keep my body satisfied, in the evening I took sleeping pills and started on day two, day two I popped 1000mg of advil 1000mg of tylenol and proceeded the day, day three I went down to 800mg of advil and 500mg of tylenol, day four 800mg advil 500mg tylenol, day five 600mg advil, 500mg tylenol, day six 400mg advil, 500 tylenol, day seven nothing! I just drank a whole shit load of water, I then made sure to get anit-depressants from the doc Ii recommend Cymbalta and trazadone 60mg of cymbalta, 100mg of trazadone, take the done at night the cymbalta in the morning, you shoukld be on your way to victory, habg in there and maintain your communication with us here on DS it helps a whole lot!!!
customs572
thanks customs for the advice. Last week was very hard. The oxys r out of my system but the need is still there. I didnt realize the withdraws would be that hard. Glad its over. But the need for meth or any kind of drug is still strong. Husband mad bc i told him I wanted sum. Just told me i was weak and I new who to call. Then he left to go over to a buds to get stoned. How unfair is that? He does care. Just as long as he got his pot to hell with me.
sweetlies