RJE1987's Journal

Back in school again. Seems to be that I am going through this a lot lately. But I do enjoy learning, and I have find out that it does help with my depression. Mainly, because it distracts me from thinking too much. Makes sense. It is a lot harder to focus on your problems, when you've got a 12 page paper due tonight and you haven't started it yet.

However, my distractions don't come with out a price. On my Facebook (At this point who doesn't have one?) most of friends are doing something or have done something fun or unique with themselves and their summers. While, I read some books, watched some television and just didn't do anything. But the odd thing out of that is even though I am now doing something that I actually enjoyed, I"m still getting a nagging feeling that I"m not living up to my "potential". Whatever the fuck that means.

Anyway...

I got a new job. Sort of. It's a transfer really. I'm just moving to a library closer to my home. That means I can now walk to and from my job. Which I like that. It means it gives me some time to be by myself and think (out loud or to myself). So that's good. But the downside is my thoughts aren't exactly kosher all of the time. Hmm... I'll try working on that I guess.

-Roxy

PS- I'm not sure if I am a girl or boy or inter-sexed. Or just fucked up. But I figure by calling myself Roxy, I've given myself the chance to see who I am without any person's set of rules. We will see where it goes.

PPS- I'm feeling better and thank you to those who threw out Hugs and High Fives on here. I know it doesn't seem like much, but the little things do really help.