My name is Amanda Frazier. I am married to the most wonderful man I've ever met who supports me in everything that I do. He is currently deployed to Iraq and I live here in Baumholder, Germany awaiting his return. I like to be around friends and my sweet animals. Poetry is my passion which I have been writing since I was nine years old. There are 45 poems that I have written that are published and a site that I created called UndyingMuse.com for poetry.
My name is Amanda Frazier. I am married to the most wonderful man I've ever met who supports me in everything that I do. He is currently deployed to Iraq and I live here in Baumholder, Germany awaiting his return. I like to be around friends and my sweet animals. Poetry is my passion which I have been writing since I was nine years old. There are 45 poems that I have written that are published and a site that I created called UndyingMuse.com for poetry.
July 17, 2008 9:51am
I hold grudges when people do me wrong. I always have and the grudges are very strong. I disconnect myself from that person and refuse to forgive …
July 8, 2008 3:37pm
I'm tired of being called crazy. I'm not crazy. I take my medicine. I have more sense than a lot of people I know Especially more than those …
Sending you some love xxx
I hope you're doing well. Sending some hugs and thinking of you.
hey there you still around? Never hear from you in the wives group. Hope all is well. Keep in touch! Please post and chat with us, we'd love to offer support if needed. Plus the friendships are great too.
lots of hugs. how are you doing? i can not imagine being with out my hubby, but you are brillant women to get through it. chat with me when you want, that can keep you busy. im bored all day....LOL
Well, I have been shaking all of my life that I can remember. I haven't ever gotten any real treatment but I am working towards that now. I shake all the time and I can't stand it.
My adoptive father died in my arms when I was seven years old. I was hit on the head with a metal pole when I was nine years old by my brother. Because of this I have a huge indention in my skull that fits the size of the pole. At age 11 I started seeing and hearing things that weren't there. I always see someone needing help that can't get help or I see someone dead. I used to believe that I wouldn't graduate to the next school year because I wouldn't live that long.
I was raised to believe that sex was bad. I was abused when I stood a wrong way, called a whore when I was as young as nine years old by my mother when I was still a virgin. I was raped when I was 13 and my virginity was taken from me then. I have been raped two more times in my life. Now I am married to a wonderful man but I feel ashamed to express myself. I always feel like I'm doing wrong and a lot of sexual stuff that should turn me on turns me off.
I have been having panic attacks more recently than before but I've had them for a few years. They get triggered by random things that remind me of bad experiences I've been through and many other reasons but I try to keep them under control with a positive outlook on things as much as possible.
I have a wonderful husband who is serving in Iraq at the moment -- I do not love everything about the military but I support my husband 110 percent.
My ptsd is in recession *yay* but it took time for me to get to this point. I have been physically abused by many people in my life and almost killed by one in particular. I am afraid of men because it was men that abused me. At the peak of my ptsd, I would throw my hands in front of my face at the mention of that person's name to block the attack. He was already in prison by that time. But I've gotten a lot better.
I was abused when I was seven months old and therefore adopted out to my aunt and uncle. Life with them was hectic and I don't think it was the best family to have adopted me. I gave birth to a child in 2005 and my husband at the time abandoned me, leaving me with no place to live or anything to eat. My adoptive brother "helped" out for about two weeks but then they wanted to keep my son. They took me to court and said I was an unfit parent because I am schitzophrenic. The judge agreed.
I gave birth and afterwards I have had my period for 5 months at a time with really only 2 weeks between starting back again. I have had 2 miscarriages since I gave birth and wonder if I will ever be able to have another child.
My husband is deployed to Iraq and I have difficulties being away from him. I hope he is staying safe and I await his phone call everyday.
