johndoe1234's Journal

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I'm very bad at saying goodbyes, mostly because I've never been the one saying goodbye, but the one being said goodbye to.

The sad fact is, our relationship is broken beyond repair. We will never be able to fix this rift between us no matter how hard we try. The truth is, I did love you, with all my heart, but now I don't have even the tiniest of feelings for you at all, it's just not there :/ I've learned from watching Becca and her first love James, it just isn't possible to go back to someone you left because you wanted to explore your feelings for someone else. It shows that James will never be enough for Becca and I will never be enough for you and we both know it.

The song says "I'll wait for you there, like a stone" Well, I'll wait for you in heaven one day and that's when we will finally have that first hug together, but until then we must live our lives seperately. I know leaving will make my life easier because I won't have to see you with someone else, and it'll make your life easier because you won't have to deal with two, there will only be one in your life.

Ugh, this is too hard because I have far too much to say, but I promised myself I'd keep it short. I'll end it with this, life is short and you deserve to be happy. I've decided to go the route of denying myself anyone else because I've seen the greatest angel and I'll wait for that angel in heaven. No one will ever be you and anyone else but you falls short. As for you, I want you to take a shot with Allen. I want you to take a shot at happiness. You even said so yourself that I'm not the one that will treat you the best and make you the happiest, so go out and find him..... please =(

This will be my last journal on here and I won't come back to DS ever again and that's a promise. I wish all of my friends best luck and all the happiness in the world. I will miss all of you, trust me :'(

Love,

Jay