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twopeople 
12:29am, June 20, 2009
I have'nt written in a long time so here goes. made it thru father's day in one peice (he was my abuser and committed suicide) have had some really deep depression lately but my doc uped my trazadone and took me off abilify and put me on lamictal. too soon to tell if there's any change yet. I still think being bp sucks. It's a full time job, no wonder we can't hold down a paying job. my family has finally adjusted to my up and down moods, but I have'nt. I wish I had more control of my life instead of it controling me, but I plan to get there one day with God's help. My husband finally got his disability so that has help releive some of the stress I've been under. money isn't everything but it sure does help. I read alot a bout how some of you can't afford the meds. I'm very blessed in that respect. I have wonderful insurance thank God. I wish I could help everybody with their meds. I hope everyone is doing ok and life's good to you all. who am I kidding? I know first hand that living with bp, depression, panic attacks and etc. is no picnic for anybody. i just try to take it one day at a time. If I look too far ahead then life really goes down hill. well that's it for now, Hugs to all my friends, take care. twopeople
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the best thing anyone ever said to me was to just "not kill myself today, do it tomorrow" and i just kept saying and saying that over and over again and it works. :) don't know how that applies but i just wanted to share.
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