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sheryl1953 
im so tired of being alone. a somewhat friend lost her husband he was sooo sick for so long it was a blessing. she barely waited the 7 days and joined a dating thing on the internet. she goes out all the time, maybe she was mournig her husband many years ago, and now it is her time to live. i cant seem to get there. no calls from friends at all for a couple of weeks, tried calling them but they are busy with the summer season in full swing. bbq dinners beach dates. so i sit and read my books. funny how i loved to read when there was no time now time is all i have. thank goodness my kids are doing well. i don't let them see me crying . but i still cry all the time. I did get invited to a friends sons wedding. i will go i hope i am not sitting at a single table. or worse the single women table the widows and divorced. good night.
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I really feel your pain. I know how hard it is to lose your partner. It will be one year next month since my husband died. He was sick along time ,. brain tumor,but it wasnt until the last year or so, since his tumor came back with a vengence , when treatment wasnt working. From the time he stopped treatment. last August until he died a month later.He went fast, it broke my heart, , had to come to terms with it fast. Wasnt /isnt easy. Jusy going day by day. I did meet someone , it will be 3 months on the 9th of August. He helps me alot, , has me talk about anything that is on my mind, , he is very under standing. No one will ever replace what I lost, just need to feel loved and needed again. I have been keeping a journal since my husband died, I tell him whatever is on my mind, what the kids are doing, all that. It helps. I hope you one day find peace with all this, find a new life, we are way to young , we have alot of life left . I still have days where I cry, where I feel everything, but its just the process we are going thru. We will get thru it. Love, deb
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