Journal

Dear Joel,

As Thanksgiving appproaches, I had to remind myself of what I had to be Thankful for.............

I Thank God for allowing me to be your mother and you my son. We had so many days of laughter and love, we had each other when it seemed the whole world was aganist us.

A 16 year old mother with a baby son, of whom, I was so very proud, my life changed that day!

A single parent later facing many challenges of life, but that was ok, I had you and your love was all that ever mattered.  I was determined to make our life better so I finished college as an honor student and you where so proud, and couldn't wait to tell all of your friends your mom was a Nurse. But now as I reflect, I realize what is so much more important in life and that is my 2 children, and grandson.  You and Jackie and Brendon were my world, but now it is just Jackie (your sister) and your son, Brendon.  You and baby Chassity have been taken away but only in the physical sense.  A mother and grandmother's love never dies it reaches behond the boundaries of life and death.  Today, I am Thankful God chose me as your mother, I must have been doing something right.  Joel, I miss you so my heart aches everyday of my life and always will, but I know you "got my back".  Goodnight my beautiful son, go rest on the arms of the angels,  I love you more than words could ever say!  Love, Always and Forever, Momma