Callia's Journal

You know sometimes I love that my boyfriend was reborn into the church, but sometimes it aggravates me. Everytime we have a conversation about faith I feel like he is belittling my faith life inadvertently. Also when I get sick he asks me "well have you prayed about it yet because you really should pray about it". I don't think he quite understands my prayer life (even though he has heard me give retreat talks on it as well as had conversations about it with me). I am trying to figure out how to tell him that it bothers me when he does stuff that I feel challenges me but not in the spiritual growth inducing way. He is like a little kid in his faith right now so everything is so fresh and exciting to him and he doesn't quite understand that I have leveled out from that high a bit and am now focused on deepening my relationship with God than on saving the souls of everyone around me. I believe that sometimes I will be the only bible anyone ever reads and therefore I need to show people the love of God and in doing that I try to avoid hounding people with the "well have you prayed about it?" kind of questions. I guess I just get frustrated because sometimes i feel like he is trying to prove to me that he is "catholic enough" or something, but in doing that ends up hurting me. I fell for him before he became a Catholic again and before he knew anything about scripture--does he really think he needs to prove his catholicism to me? I have been there since before he converted back and I introduced him to the scripture--he doesn't need to prove anything.